Sunday B4 Christmas in Hi

I am thankful that I am cancer free (for now). Ovarian cancer is known to be tricky, even after the ovaries and everything else is gone.

Tomorrow I am 10 weeks post op. I thought I would be fully recovered from surgery by now. They told me 3 - 6 months at my last appointment. I have so many things I need and want to do. Here I lay in my bed with cramping and stomach pains.

I have tried 3 times to make sourdough bread for friends for gifts. Using the precious small amount of energy that I have. 3 times I have failed. I think my starter is “off”. If only I could find the Rye flour in the pantry to feed it a tablespoon or so, I think it would perk up. The pantry is a wreck and I am not up to dealing with it.

I had visitors on Friday and my son will be here on Monday, just for the night on the way to his dad’s house. Wednesday is Christmas and I have promised my husband I will manage dressing and a hen. I expect a couple to drop by for a short visit that day. My brother and nephew are planning to come for a couple of days between Christmas and New Year’s. I will be really glad to see everyone but ….. I am known to be an immaculate housekeeper and guess what… Everything is upside down and I can’t fix it.

I am grumpy.

I am mad at the situation.

My husband is working on the pantry and the kitchen is getting worse!!

I look like a prune - 127 pounds today.

Travel insurance is sitting on our claim. Tomorrow was supposed to be our trip.