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I feel a bit empty this morning.... like the battery is fine but there is no gas… I’m sure it will pass… I have to keep in mind it’s all for the best. Even Jake’s best.... I’m not IT for him and I sure don’t want to stand in the way of him finding it.

Jake went to the doctor yesterday. Persistant cough and drainage. I’d recently had a terrible cold and passed it to him.... however, apparently he has double ear infections. Honestly, I wasn’t even aware you could get those as an adult. Either way I suspect he will stay at his moms for a few days. Wish he would come here. Where nothing will be asked of him while he’s sick....

I took twice as much pot gummy last night as I would normally have taken.... it was nice.... but now I’m certain I need a T-break (break from THC) so I’ll calm myself and concentrate on getting those boxes unpacked… There are still 30 boxes to unpack and not nearly enough time in a day.

Yesterday, I was supposed to go hang out with Destiny.... being her day off. Some major drama happened in her family recently and yesterday it was Dests turn. I couldn’t handle it with my bit o drama too.... so I talked my way out of it and owe her Saturday.... later in the day Rocky struck up a deal for diner tonight so I’ll go over after work .... after I let Nouget out.

Dest’s step father molested her. She had always told me about getting a charlie horse in her upper thigh and him massaging it for her.... she always second guessed herself “maybe I imagined it” that because her mother did not believe her it must not be real. She called me yesterday telling me a much different story. In the 30+ years she’d never told me what she discussed with her mom yesterday. Apparently, her step father used to wake them up messaging them… rubbing their shoulders, back, butt, boobs..... highly inappropriate and creepy. No way she imagined that.

Destiny’s sister, Heather, made some off-handed comment to her Gran and her mother had been there. She asked Gran about it and Gran said “You need to talk to Heather about it.” which was super smart on Grans part.... if you gonna get upset it will be something Heather said and not something Gran said. Heather, then went through it. Her story and all that she endured. Mom then went to Destiny’s crying and asking her side.... “Before you tell me what happened to you I need to know why you didn’t tell me.” “We did, many times, you weren’t hearing it, you didn’t want to believe us.” Destiny’s mom was dealing with that all day and there was communication silence so Destiny went to her house last night. I’ll hear about that today at some point.

I’m so happy she got a chance to be heard. I feel for her mom who probably feels like she failed her children. I mean I can’t imagine it feels good. Dest went over there to tell her how little it matters now. How she’d been forgiven long before now. That it was some 30 years ago and there is no reason to bring it up. That Bob (her stepdad) should be remembered the way she’d been remembering him..... honestly, what’s best for her mom at this point.