road block in my week in Second 1st

Sunday night I didn’t sleep. Not like I rolled around in bed and I don’t recall sleeping but like I couldn’t sleep and I moved to the chair in the living room and was just playing games most of the night. Monday, I went to work but around 10 Dest messaged and asked IF and when I was coming over. I totally hate this behavior as I’ve told her several times “When I hit goal I’ll quit and come over.” It’s apparently not acceptable but I wasn’t feeling all that great not having slept so I quit early thinking “I’ll make it up it’s only Monday.”

Jake was supposed to stop by Dest’s and hang out but.... not even a kiss.... he said he was mad at me too because he waited outside for a bit and I never came out.... as if he’d asked me to come out. I assumed he was in a bit of a hurry being he had his mom with him and appointments to get to.... but not even a kiss… k whatever moving on.

Tuesday, Jake and I met up for brunch and apparently I had scheduled some time in his home area because I’d expected to be there .... I couldn’t clock in because it was 30 mins away. I ended up losing all the time after that for the day.

Wednesday, I did a sparks order that was the most rediculous thing I’ve seen ever and makes me want to not do spark at all. I was cool with taking 3 orders for $25 because honestly in the time it said I could get it done I probably would have made less on Doordash.... but also it would only have 1 pick up.... .looked at the orders and saw that one had a papasan chair . I personally loaded that in the backseat while the workers loaded a large order in the trunk and a smaller one in the front seat. When I got to the first order .... it was on the 3rd floor of an apartment building .... OKAY I can do this.... lets get started.... they got 2 cases of water so I used one to hold open the apartment building door.... then.... oh… 4 cases of soda.... cool I’ll grab 2 with one hand and a few bags.... 2 gallons milk… ok getting complicated.... 4 more gallons of random stuff.... tea.. punch… with he regular items I walked those 3 flights 6 times.... The customer had stepped out and took the first case of water and left her door open.... had said ” sorry about all the stairs.” and then proceeded to no to anything. I honestly felt like it was one of the rudest things you could do..... would have much rather her never have opened the door. I made it through telling myself that it’s possible she’d had a surgery or has back issues and needs me to bear the hard work. Before I left though I left the last remaining case at the top of the stairs. It was very visible from her door but I just couldn’t. I honestly felt like falling down the stairs would have been easier than walking it. I was so dizzy.... sigh I made it though.... the second order was a house I could almost pull up to the porch.... they ordered a fair bit and it was mostly canned goods but I got it done..... The 3rd order with the chair was on a second floor apartment. I had to work smarter and roll it up the stairs.... Team lift… what? that shouldn’t even have been assigned to a delivery driver.... I mean to they assume there are 2 people? .... anyways I had forgotten to reset my break from doordash and lost the rest of the day. in order to make the goal of 600 I would need to make 117 each day.... I ended up lowering that yesterday to 550 and 105.... but

Wednesday night a couple 12 year old girls tried to commit suicide by consuming Tylenol. Lyndsey sent me a FB post by one of the girls’ aunts calling for a protest this morning at the school. Channel 12 is supposedly going to show up .... There were some passionate comments and a bunch of trolls BUT..... not long ago Lydsey’s oldest (11) was in a fight at school in the same district and was very unhappy with the outcome. Victims get punished no matter the situation. So Lyndsey wants to go protest this morning so that Emmy’s voice might be heard. I’m all for it and afraid she won’t do it alone.... Emmy will be going to the school they are protesting at next year so it’s important to get policy changed!.... I’ve never protested and honestly it’s something on my bucket list. What better reason than to support anti-bullying measures at the school Lyn’s kids are going to. My first thought is “can we legally protest”.... I suppose we can as I can’t find anything saying we can’t .... I browsed the ACLU site for tips and stuff....... so we will see how that goes.

Jake stayed the night Wednesday and I slept in his bed.... stayed up a tad so I could be awake when he got home.... but went to sleep after relations and left before he woke up Thursday morning.

Thursday was a bit long but nothing too interesting happened aside from Lyndsey and the passion project above.

This morning Lyn and I plan on being at the school at 7.... Her gran is going to see the girls off to school.

I have to work what I can till then and after we clear out.... still need 105 today.

Time to get started.