I wish in Chronic illness

I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired
I wish it would all go away
I wish that my body could simply get fired
I’d get a new body to stay

I wish that my normal could decide
What it would look like each day
So that I could get used to my normal
And anxiety could slip far away

I want to know what the healthy ones know
The reassurances they wake and they sleep with
To know that a day without pain and fatigue
Is quite real and not just a myth

I want to not know what I know
About hospitals, doctors, and meds
About specialists, braces, and pain pills
And needles and pillows and beds.

I want to wake and have energy
To arise and get right on with the day
To see something needing to be done
And to finish it all straight away

I don’t want to know the best way
To have an xray, test or scan
I don’t want know All my levels
Or need and emergency plan.

I wish for my family as well
That they knew less than they do
That all they knew was my happy life
Not knowing and helping me too

But my life is not what I make it
My wishes will never come true
So I keep on marching forward
Doing my best, enjoying life, and making do.