Friend-zoned for the umpth time! in Actual journal entries

I got 40 minutes before I have to load my clothes into the dryer so I figured now’s a good time for a, somewhat, quick entry!

Soon let’s get to what’s bothering me, big time. Being friend-zoned!

I guess being me, you know… overly nice, gets me nowhere fast with women these days.

Refer to my last entry about Miss Dodgeball crush. I’m pretty sure it’s all about over now. I know my month time limit is up, but that doesn’t stop me from bitching about it in here ;) Even my friend (who imposed the time limit) said that it was time to move on.

Since the last entry, we’ve tried to meet up and get beer once more and she rain-checked me again. She was also nice enough to wish me a happy birthday with a promise of an IPA next time she sees me.

But twist, she caught Bronchitis this week (twice this month) and I thought, why not drop her off some chicken soup or something… So i floated that by her.

Her response:
“You’re so sweet but I’ll be OK… Thanks though”

I’m too nice, she’s too nice… Things aren’t going anywhere.

Then I had a talk with another set of friends (female friends) to get some more perspective. Told them what was going on and they’re telling me just give it one more shot. Try and get that beer with her when I get back from London.

That or just ask her out on a date flat out. It’ll hurt, but at least I won’t keep being a bitch and poisoning my own head and happiness with the lingering thoughts.

At least when I said to my other female friends that “when we take pictures, she makes US look damn good” they thought it was sweet.

I’m sure I know what my answer is, but i’m just too shook/skurred to just rip off the bandage. I mean, I texted her today, got ignored, and saw her respond to someone else on FB.

<sarcasm> Gotta love my stage 5 clinger side </sarcasm>

I hate what I become when I’m interested in someone. I try my hardest not to turn into such a stage 5 clinger, but I just can’t help myself. Especially if she shows a SLIGHT interest in me. I mean, I’ve gotten better, somewhat, about not turning into a stage 5 clinger, but still it hurts. At least I can see it coming and try to change course before I hit the damn iceberg, so to speak!

This entry can’t be all gloomy.

I leave for London on Wednesday!!!! I can’t wait to just get out and enjoy London! Just enjoying the break from work, the BS, dodgeball crush, and playing tourist!

Also, I’ve been pretty good about hitting the gym before work. Been getting up at 5:30am and getting to the gym and getting my Muay Thai training in. One of the trainers misses me a LOT. He loves to torture me in the mornings, but he definitely means well.

I’ve been hitting the gym for almost the past month, getting up early 3-4 times a week. It’s starting to show a bit. The trainers and other guys there have noticed. My friends and co-workers have definitely noticed as well! My body is plenty used to getting up early now, so I might as well keep going! Plus, my timing movements are starting to come back better than ever. Shoot, my trainer is surprised I can pull off head kicks :)

Ran a half-marathon in downtown LA last Sunday and I beat my PR by a minute!

I am so behind. I just loaded my laundry into the dryer. I still have to nail down all the things I want to do in London and how to get to them, from where I’m staying! Plus, I have to get SOME packing done and get my camera stuff ready.

And now, time to head off. If you’ve ready this far, I think I owe you a beer ;)

-Danny