Fibromyalgia exercise hell, gabapentin,weight loss, vegitarian meals in Life of a cat mom

My husband heard fibromyalgia can decrease with exercise. He sent me to the gym and we did a yoga class. My husband Talan was exercising he was fine. I was aching by movement I was trying to breathe through my pain with tears in my eyes. Several times I lost my balance and almost fell. The instructor wanted me to relax and enjoy myself. How do I enjoy myself when it feels like a thousand knives are going through my body? She kept telling me to close my eyes but I had tears in my eyes. This didn’t help. It made my pain worse.

The instructor asked how I felt when exercise was over. My husband said he had a great time. I told her everything hurts I thought yoga help fibromyalgia. My husband said he wants to do this 3 days a week with me. I got in the car wanting to cry. It didn’t ease my pain it made it so much worse.

I went to my doctor today. He swears my pain is from bipolar disorder. I don’t understand how. He suggested me to see a therapist because I am depressed. I have 24/7 pain. He expects me to be happy about it? I don’t have maniac highs. He also prescribed me gabapentin. He said it will decrease fibromyalgia pain. He said he finds it abnormal I stay depressed. He obviously never lived with fibromyalgia.

The doctor asked what I have been doing. I told him my Bravada is in the shop I am getting it fixed. I have to purchase a motor.After the motor is fixed I plan to haul off furniture and garbage from moms house using it. I haven’t been working much at moms because the pain is simply to much also I have a naval hernia and can’t lift furniture by myself. My husband swears he wants to help but creates arguments and excuses to get out of it.

I work tomorrow. Between fibromyalgia and PMS I regret my life. I hope gabapentin will help my shift be bearable.

Since my husband became a vegitarian I went from 220 to 214. How did I lose 6 pounds you ask? My husband keeps trying to cook tofu. The food he tries to cook has a bad texture and taste horrible. When I find out I don’t like it I take a few bites and give him the rest of the plate. He is on a diet. He has lost 55 pounds this year taking diet pills. I lose weight because his new food disgust me. I often go to bed hungry. I don’t tell him this because I am grateful he is cooking for my family. I am also grateful he cares about his health enough to cook healthy.

I have been trying to convince him to try vegitarian meat but he refuses. I need to talk to some vegetarian figure out some good recipes.

Today we are at Dish Cafe. I let my husband choose my meal since he is familiar with the menu. He knew I am burned out on vegitarian so he tried something else. He chose me chicken,noodles and marinara. I got sick off of it. I barely ate a quarter of it instead throwing it away I brought it to my mom. Mom refuses to go out to eat with us so I deliver her meals home. Mom enjoyed the meal. I wish my ulcers appreciate the food as much as mom did.

Today I gave the mechanic $900 for parts and labor. The mechanic bought tires for my car. I was going to go to Advance Auto to buy a motor off my friend Brian but he was sick and called in. When I found out Brian gets a bonus if he sells enough on his commissions I decided buy my motor off of him. A man in the store tried to get me to buy it off of him I refused. Brian helps me get discounts on parts and Brian gets bonuses when I buy a lot from him… If I help Brian he helps me. Its a great trade. I plan to wait till I get off tomorrow and get my car parts from Brian.
I bought a seat covers for my Dodge Spirit today. I cleaned up the car a little. I plan to put the seat covers on later. After the Bravada gets out of the shop I plan to get it seat covers next.

I wish my life was interesting. Today my husband went to The Kulture which is a shop that sells marijuana. He tried to convince me to smoke it for pain. I already got blood pressure issues I refuse to restrict my veins for a high. It isn’t worth it. I know some people love to smoke but the numbness reminds me of a stroke and I rather not feel like I am dying.

I am hoping that the pain gets better. I need to sleep morning comes early.