Ugh in 2024

I am so tired.
I haven’t had a good nights sleep since Dana left.
I try to go to bed early and I can’t sleep. I just lay there, listening to the animals breathe while my brain runs like it’s in a marathon.
So, to shut it up, I grab my phone and scroll TicTok.
Watch videos until I can’t hold my eyes open (about 30 minutes) and I put the phone away.
I get all snuggled down and sleepy then BOOP, my eyes are open again.
Before I know it, it’s 1-2 am and I know the next day is going to be a long one.
Again.
I’ve thought about just staying up one night so, maybe, I can reset myself.
Maybe it might work.
Maybe it might not.
Maybe that would be the gateway drug to a nice bout of insomnia.

Mmmm, gateway drug. For some reason I have been craving pot like crazy.
The taste, the smell, the relaxation with no inner monologue. That would be great!
Alas, I am in a state that is STILL run by The Church. Kansas needs to get its head out of its ass and legalize already.

I know I’m behind on OctoPhoMo. I have the photos, just haven’t had the motivation to post them. I will, though. Get ready for a bunch of back dated entries. lol!!

I always start the day with the best of intentions but by the time I get home, I just zone out.
Everything is so overwhelming and just too much. Hell, yesterday was Sunday and I didn’t even do laundry. I got the change but that’s as far as it went.
So much stuff to do. I was on call this past week which mean I was only off Sunday. I never get anything done on my on call weeks (while Dana is away).
I need to make a list.
Ahhh, a list. I can hear the collective moans.
Sorry.
My process.

Stuff To Do This Week
- Laundry
- Bedding? If I have enough change.
- Get caught up on OctoPhoMo.
- Get caught up on entries.
- Make a Thanksgiving menu and find recipes. Remember, no sweet potatoes and no cranberry anything. That one kills me.
- Make cornbread and freeze before buttermilk (or eggs) go bad.
- Make biscuits and freeze.
- Work on diamond painting. I’m so almost done with this one.
- Dishes.
- Sweep / mop.

I think that might be it for now.
That’s a lot of stuff.
I’m just gonna keep copying and pasting that list into each entry until I finish it.
It’ll get done this week. I mean, what else do I have better to do?
Sleep?
Hahaha!!!