No feeling well in Bittersweet

    I am flaring up. A few things always become apparent when I am. I bruise really easy. My migraines get worse. I feel like ive been hit by the flu even though im fine. General run down and malaise. This time I had a wart pop up on my hand ( LAME!) Im really tired and even after rest im beat and the damn words arent coming. I know what I want to say, but cant get words out half the time or I say weird shit! . See if your body is busy killing itself. It cant fight off everything else.  

This headache sucks. Im just wiped out after 10 hours of sleep. 

Totally not getting much done. Yesterday I baked chocolate chip cookies, then took A to a birthday party. While she was there, we hit up the mall and she and I bought shoes while the boys got haircuts. But I was feeling so out of it.  I ended up knitting and resting the rest of theday. Today I did minimal cooking and again,  ran to the store and now im of the couch. Back to knitting and reading. Im making knit chickens. Yeah weird lmao.

I made two loaves of apple pumpkin bread ( a huge hit always) Home made Buisquick mix ( just add milk!) 12 cups of brown sugar and granola bars. 

I know its just a day or two here and there but I hate days where im this tired. I dont do much beyond sleep or rest on the couch and deal with pain. I feel like my life is being wasted. 

My neck hurts like crazy and my head is so sore. I took a bunch of migraine meds yesterday too. Its like my shot isnt kicking in even though I took it afew days ago. I got my hormones put in on Monday and really that could be why my head is hurting too. Its timed with my shot unfortunately. I need my shot to go in 1-2 weeks BEFORE the hormones and I cant do that lmao. Prescriptions only come every month and the hormones is one day a month. So If I miss a month, Im waiting another month which puts me at the SAME time anyway.  So really. Ill always be getting them at the same time. The hormones can be a bit brutal going in sometimes. I just feel way better over all once they are in. 
So I know that dosent help. The added stress of the last few days dosent help.

Onboarding two new people at once for front end dosent help. Lots of little DOSENT HELPS lol.

However, I will share my chicken I knit. Its a Halloween chicken, Henrietta. Im now making one for L and my coworker wants one too. Another coworker's baby sister had a baby and asked me ( paid me) for booties and a bonnet. I gotta get all that done.  Im actually feeling over halloween. Like I dont want to decorate at home at all. Our skeleton went up and wind took him down, Broke his ankle and head. So we gotta fix that... Sigh. 
I made the blanket on the couch as well as Henrietta. I also crochet a spider and another blanket there.  T keeps telling me its ok to just rest. I dont NEED to do shit every day.  But I hate wasting days...  Sign. 

Im not getting my nephew. They talked to him and after a couple days with mom, he is feeling ok. stepdad wants to let it lay. Even though mom dosent have a legal right to have the child. But he seems happy. Im going to figure out a nice non threatening way to text bio mom and let her know that his cousins would like to talk to him when he can. They miss him and we only live an hour away but they would love to be able to facetime or play games together. A does miss playing with him even though he is L's age. 
Im like whatever. You all are the ones dealing with your daughter who dumped her kid. I was just there to go get him if needed. So fucked up the whole thing.

Thursday is the best of city award ceremony. My dress is sparkly and very fitted. T's suit will be ready monday. We will be ready for the ceremony. Will we win over the biggest hospital for a third year in a row? We will find out lol! 

Anyway, im going to get off. Im nearly done with my second chicken. L wants a chungus chicken. Its huge.