Monidoo Mukwa in Current Events

You need to own your story so that you can change it. What is your story? I’m just having a scheduled existential crisis.

I wish I had a shaman to interpret the will of creator. I am asking for clarity. There are a lot of blindspots in my psyche. I’m doing something wrong that is creating internal dramas and upsets. Stop wondering their worth. Is the answer I received. The way we see the world is the way we see ourselves. If I reverse the image I’m not good enough. I’ve made, and I make, a lot of choices in my life based on that fundamental belief. I’m only human. I’m stuck in the two-value thinking that disconnects me from others and nature, which is creator. I need an actualized holistic view of the world.

Serve your community. A voice said to me that sounded like my late grandmother. The last time she came to me in a dream she was a young proud Native woman. As she once was. She died a Christian. All roads lead to the metaphysical teachings that come from Astrology (Astro logos- word of god). I am Anishinaabe and this is the path I am to walk, I can only assume. When Spirit says go left, you go left. He wants me to learn the ways of my people. They were the last ones to have a true connection to creator. Before the antichrist came to disconnect us.

I am reminded of the lesson that my grandmother gave me in that dream. You take nothing with you to the other side. I was weighed down by unnatural thoughts about money. Most of what we identify with does not exist in reality. The antichrist forced his way on us. We are spiritualizing our own prison. These false idols feed the mind virus and weigh us down. We are soul-trapped. We’ve never strayed this far from God. We no longer live in balance.

Everybody wants to go backward. Nostalgia is a time when you knew your place. The world has become a very complicated place. We are torn apart by things that are not real and we’re all fighting for our place in it. We have forgotten who we are. We cannot see how united we are under God and his word.

I lived my life in shadow, never the sun on my face. It didn’t seem so sad though. I figured that was my place. The lyrics from a musical that I woke up to in my head. Be a Shadow Worker. The mind virus does not want to be seen. It is our inner narcissist. Self-awareness is our blindspot. Nobody wants to be aware. We can only understand something as deeply as we understand ourselves. The revolution can only be internalized. We are on the right track but we are going the wrong way. We need to expand inward. The truth is not bitter, it is unsweetened. The mind virus doesn’t want to let us near the truth. It wants to keep us in psychosis. Psychosis is when you struggle to relate to reality. We are in the upside-down but we cannot see it.

“Truth is like a lion; you don’t have to defend it. Let it loose; it will defend itself.”
— St. Augustine

We are not free from what we do because we are not free from what we want. I want to be free from my desires so that I can govern myself. Serve god and the truth. I need a practice. I found my path, I just need to walk it and leave all my luggage behind. The theme of my journey seems to be about learning The Way of the Voice. Finding my own voice and then learning to use it. I’ve always been afraid to use it. Social anxiety has been crippling me my whole life. Fear is paralytic to our consciousness.

“The truth is the strongest of all things; the truth is the light of the mind, and the mind is the light of the spirit.”
— Hermes Trismegistus, Emerald Tablet

“Be not afraid; for I am with you. I shall guide you through the dark places until you find the light.”
— Egyptian Book of the Dead

“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.”
— Isaiah 43:1-2

“Stand up and do your duty. Abandon all attachment to success or failure. Such evenness of mind is called yoga.”
— Bhagavad Gita 2.47

“O nobly-born, now you are experiencing the radiance of the Clear Light of Pure Reality. Recognize it. Your own consciousness, shining, void, and inseparable from the great body of radiance, has no birth, no death, and no fear. It is the unchanging light—the truth.”
— Tibetan Book of the Dead

“The bear teaches us that true courage is not the absence of fear but the ability to stand strong in its presence.”
— Ojibwe Teaching