The Vibe Is Still Nor in Current Events

I got my sister to look for an apartment or house to rent. She loves doing that.

I am tired of living with this 40-year-old teenager. She can suffer from her dumb cow’s disease on her own. I have to pick up the slack but she’s the victim, according to some commentators in the past. Maybe she is going through something, you need to be compassionate. You are such a monster. She can have an empty apartment and live out of storage totes just like she did before we moved in. She actually bought a dresser for herself this summer, I had to convince her. When she told me that her grandmother did absolutely everything for her growing up leaving her not knowing how to do anything as an adult, I mentally checked out. She’s about to be a woman in her 40s. I don’t make the rules but she is about to disappear from society. Nobody is going to care no matter how hard she tries. She will be bitter and alone and her Karen era will just be a joke because everyone will just continue on with their lives unscathed.

Winnipeg Harvest donates food to our organization every two weeks. It was my program’s turn to pick it up. Guys! We want to leave!! Some woman snapped at us. We were in her way. She was from a women’s shelter, according to her sweater. Maybe you wouldn’t need a women’s shelter if you had basic manners! I wanted to say. Every fiber of my being wanted to slap the sass out of her. Respect the pecking order. I concluded that all my grievances are coming from women with deeply underdeveloped characters. Is what I am experiencing self-validating or is it representative of reality? That question put an end to my anti-matriarchy era. They’re emotionally dysregulated individuals, it doesn’t have anything to do with their gender. Unless I’m wrong. Maybe I’ll brainwash myself with red-piller content.

I am not as unhinged and mean as I want to be. I don’t think people are appreciating that. If I even tried to match their energy I would do it tenfold. I’m going to check myself before I wreck myself this weekend. I need to do some deep reflection and self-assessment. It’s a long weekend so my roommate will be around all useless as fuck so I’ll have to wait until Tuesday. It is distracting having her around doing nothing while the apartment needs basic maintenance.

I was starting to wonder if I had OCD the other day. I don’t have time to explore that.

She started talking to some schmuck from a dating site. She deleted her account the moment he gave her his number. He will be another man that will want nothing to do with her after they sleep together. She has absolutely nothing to offer. Again, she is a 40-year-old teenager. This current interaction seems to have generated some unearned confidence. Her personality is to call everything stupid and be hypercritical about random things nobody cares about because everybody else our age is an actualized adult.

I feel like there is something missing here that would flip my vile and profane perspective on its head because it doesn’t feel right. It just feels good. My mood disorders are still absent but my anger issues keep coming back. All I want is to be violent because everybody is stupid and they need to smarten up. That’s the vibe. In real life, I’m bubbly, compassionate, supportive, kind, and generous, but it takes everything I have to put on that show to keep the peace.

Anyway, my roommate has her Saturday morning “cartoons” on and I have to clean the place before work. On with it then.