Daily Log Things in Current Events

At the end of my therapy session, my therapist realized that we barely even had a session. It was more like two friends catching up and shooting the shit. We should just be friends and talk off the clock, I should say to him.

I was telling Andy, my coordinator, how great everything is on paper. How great it works in theory but how hard it is to make it work in person. My therapist agreed when I explained this because it is not always easy working with kids. I bring this up because we had problems with our participant yesterday. He had a lot of attitude and he ran off on us. I thought he was going to be our easiest kid because he is our oldest (11). I tried to see if he understood the dangers of running off and he didn’t. He is also our only non-indigenous participant so I’m curious to see how our program works with him. He has the attitude of someone who is used to always getting his way.

My last background check has still not come in. I can tell that this is making things difficult for my coordinator. Our part-timer, his available has been a disaster as of late so he is unable to rely on him as well. I’m am hoping that by some freak chance it shows up today. This Saturday will be 4 weeks on the dot. Diego said that that his took 6. I’m also worried that I fucked something up on the application and have to do it again. That is what happened with my criminal background check. It cost me another $60 to apply again.

I did officially meet all of the participants now. If all of my background checks were here, I would be taking them out without my coordinator. Tuesday to Thursday. Friday is our office day. We do our timesheets, our case notes, etc. We also get things ready for Saturday which is our group days. This is another area where my lack of background checks makes work for him. I can’t be alone with the kiddos just yet. We have to pick them up and get them to the program. Diego can’t work the whole day so he is a bust. He is working out a notice, next week he will be more reliable.

Other than that, it is pretty chill. Like, we just do a lot of running around. I did so much driving yesterday, I actually hated it by the time I got to leave for home. I was very far from home. There is the posh side of the city where my therapist is. That is also where our participant lives, the one I met yesterday. He lives in a rich area. The ones I met the other day live in a transition house. A transition apartment, actually. I have to buzz in, sign in, explain who I am before I can go get the kiddo. Such different backgrounds. So I was back and forth between those ends of town. I will get used to driving.

Once I’m in the swing of things, I won’t be so bored in the office. I don’t like that I am just following Andy around like a lost puppy. I do kind of like the pace that we are going though as a result of my situation. With Diego, when he is reliable again, he is just getting thrown into it. Here is the address, contact their guardian, take the kid out, and good luck! He will do alright though. It’s not super complicated, just intimidating.

I seem to need to write every day. It is good to air out my brain. Andy canceled on our participant today so we could have an extra day to prepare for Saturday. He isn’t using me enough, I should talk to him about that. He doesn’t seem to want to delegate. I want to support him more. He doesn’t have to micromanage. This program is starting up and I said You can make this program your own!
He replied with WE can make this program OUR own.
No! I said. WE can make this program YOUR own.
So he changed our shifts to a day one and I am not a fan of them because of rush hour. I also slept in today which is not a bad thing. I just don’t have time to putter around as much. So I should get on with it then. I have 20 minutes to pull myself together and leave.