M.y D.yslexic M.aster A.ttorney in Book One: The Not So Daily Briefs 2014

It is far too early for an entry of substance. After all, I’ve only been awake for a hair over three hours; and all I’ve done in that time was Facebook games, court, check in at the office, and go home. However… part of that time was spent in and around the company of Molly and something I’ve been pondering a great deal finally came into focus.

Upon walking into the office, I could tell with my nose that Molly was there. It wasn’t an “Oh dear God, that’s strong” scent but the kind of scent that lingers in the air just long enough to bring the individual to mind. And right there… the string was pulled.

You see, I’ve been continually thinking that Molly reminds me of two very disparate people combined into one bizarre and alluring amalgamation. As I don’t want to flip this into a Friends Only entry; I’ll protect some anonymity here. Molly reminds me of my friend “Summer” who was gorgeous, athletic, super Irish, very put together, and sweet as can be. However, she also reminds me of my friend “Winter” who was attractive (in her own right), loud, annoying, super Irish, unstable, and (at times) downright mean. So… HOW could one person bring both of these people to mind simultaneously?! That is what came into focus today.

I have a friend here on Prosebox whose gift with descriptive language puts brilliant writers to shame… as I do not have her gift, simply bare with me as I stumble through some descriptors here.......

I walked into the office and caught a scent that is wonderful to be around but difficult to describe. It smells… clean, but with just a hint of something else to it so that it isn’t “sterile clean” smell but “warm comfortable spring clean” smell. The scent didn’t cling to the air molecules and strangle the life out of the room; but danced through the air tugging at the nose just gently enough to be inviting.

As I turned the corner and saw Molly, my eyes quickly devoured the sight before me. She was sitting behind a desk, so my only view was from her waist up; but that was pleasing enough. The simplest descriptions would suggest merely a professional appearance. She wore a professional-looking white button down shirt, wore a tasteful professional looking make up design, her glasses were clean and her hair was down. But… there was something ineffable about all of it. The hair was “simply down” but had clearly been washed, combed, and cared for. The shirt was professional, but the top buttons were undone and there was the unmistakable flash of flesh peeking through the gaps between buttons when she bent in certain ways. It was as if the clothes selected were ordinary; but when placed on her, they became extraordinary. BOOM

That is when the first realization came to me. That is why she reminds me so much of “Summer!” Not only do both women share a similar Irishness… not only are both women runners whose genetics may always curse them to appear “larger” than they are… not only are both women well endowed in the chest… not only are both women lovers of skirts (and wear them awesomely)… but… both women wear (or simply emit) a scent that can best be described as “clean but pleasant”… both women can look amazing with (what they claim to be) minimal effort… and both women make the CLOTHES look good as opposed to the opposite. Also. both women have “darker” voices than one might expect. A voice that is a little lower, a little controlled, but still upbeat with a positive inflection. So… there’s where we get “Summer.”

But if we can explain “Summer”… now I needed an explanation for “Winter.” I mean… while “Winter” was a big part of my life; in most respects it is not a part I would like to repeat. Now, there is obviously any similarities that “Winter,” “Summer,” and Molly share… the Irish nature, genetics that suggest “larger” than actual… well endowed in the chest… lovers of skirts.... but honestly, without more than that… that just isn’t enough to specifically evoke the connection in my head. So, I went to the next level. If the physical doesn’t make enough of a connection, look deeper. I think that is where it is. I emphasize “think” because without much more thorough investigation… which I am fairly confident would result in me cheating on my wife… I can’t be 100% certain… but I’m fairly sure.

You see.. “Winter” was excessively poor with particular social graces. Primarily, she would talk until she ran out of things to say. Then talk over someone if she suddenly had more to say again. Molly does this, but not nearly as blatantly or offensively. So, while this is enough to suggest a connection; it is not enough to tie the two so closely in my head. Perhaps, then, it was how openly both women discussed sexual matters. Now, “Summer” was not a prude and discussed fantasies and desires as well… but she always tiptoed to those conversations and tactfully held the conversation. “Winter” and Molly make no such apologies (and, in many ways, good for them.) “Winter” shared the stories of her entire sexual experiences with me within the first week of knowing one another; likewise, Molly has not made it a secret that she is a woman that enjoys a good fucking. (Awesome is that those were her words). So that most certainly makes the connection stronger; but I’m still not sure if it is enough. So… ultimately, I believe there is a specific thing that… while potentially upsetting… totally works. You see, “Summer” and I dated and never had a physical relationship. I cared very much for her, I was very attracted to her, but for some reason… that part of our relationship just never happened. Shortly after dating “Summer,” I met “Winter” and while the emotional connection wasn’t as strong as what I had shared with “Summer,” it was very easy to see a physical relationship with “Winter”… which did, in fact, happen. I am led to wonder if that may be an element herein. I care for my wife very much, I am very attracted to her, but for some reason… our physical relationship is strained to nonexistent. Then there is Molly. While the emotional connection isn’t as strong; it is very easy to see a physical relationship with her. Perhaps… perhaps that is where the connection is strongest.

Summer.... Winter.... either, both… no matter, I do think it might be dangerous to myself and my marriage to hang around Molly for extended periods. And what is difficult is, I know that… yet still want to.