at least 2x. *TW* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

ya know. almost 2 yrs. ago when he...........when it happened he hurt me at least twice. but I mean. it didn’t hurt. at all. he didn’t fully penetr*te me. [that’s not why I took plan b]. I didn’t do much bc I was too stoned and drunk to. in the words of this one guy ‘there was nothing consensual’. well no. I thought he was just going to wait a few mins. for his friend. or maybe............there wasn’t any intention of his friend even coming I don’t know. or maybe if she had it would’ve been worse. I don’t know.
I just. wonder why he did it more than once. actually 3x at least oral included.
I don’t remember having my coat once we left the bar but I again must’ve as it’s not like me not to esp. in the dead of winter.
I told him not to. but he did. it seems like it was one right after the other but maybe i’m remembering wrong.
I sssomehoww remember. during.........when he............when he put his. um during the oral part. I remember. being upset and not wanting it at all. I alssssso wwonder why he didn’t fully. um..............yeah. he didn’t seem to care. well no. he didn’t. and bc I told him not to that say I wassss afraid je was going to. [well yeah.]. and then he did it. after the firssst time he did it.
I think.. he wanted to ssstay bc he didn’t have a ride. what so he could do it again? no. that wasn’t going to happen if he already did it 3x.