Some Good News in Whatever Will Be Will Be

This morning was full of multiple individuals with terrible problems regarding violence. Even down to a 15 year old who picked up adult charges for just beating the hell out of a gas station employee who refused to sell her vape products. And with the violence comes the attitude. They are in Court behaving like wild animals. Arguing, screaming, trying to fight the bloody judge!! And as I sat there, I kept thinking “I cannot understand this at all!” Which caused me to pause and take note. Because… there was… a long stretch of time there where I was a very angry person. There are some particularly significant ways that I would not recognize myself compared to back then. And yes, sadly, one of them is how much fatter I have become. But.... there’s a lot there. And I’m not blaming any one thing, necessarily but....
Nancy was a big part of my life throughout that whole “Being a very angry person” phase. It’s… alarming… but interesting to take note of these differences.

Work today otherwise was meh. I actually completed my ENTIRE “To Do” List (for work) this week which doesn’t happen often enough. I know I’ll need to start adding heavily to that as I prepare for my jury trial this month. But… it’s nice to acknowledge success when it happens.

Current plan for tonight/the weekend? Swimming Pool tonight. Deadpool & The Wolverine tomorrow. HOPEFULLY at some point I can get some quality alone time to work on the house, the house chores, spend time with my dog, and do stuff for me. I’m doing better about holding space for myself but… it is still something I need to work on.