Decisions Decisions in Current Events

I’m coming to my senses but I am still torn about what vehicle to get. I just need a vehicle for transportation. It is not a toy. The cost of the pre-owned Chargers are close to the cost of a brand-new vehicle. At least, what they were before the con-19 hoax did its job inflating the costs of everything. The Charger is not for a man my age. I’m not in a position to buy a 30k car. I’ll be in a position for it if I get that gig at the non-profit. That’s a gamble. I’ll get hired but if it isn’t for a full-time position, that could be a problem. It will take 7 years to pay it off. My post-secondary education will also take that long. That’s something to consider. My mother gave me the come-to-Jesus talk but still gave me her blessing, so to speak, to get the Charger. She trusts my judgment. However, I’ve come close to financial suicide before which was the source of my nervous breakdowns. I’ve got a stronger grip on my mental wellbeing now. It would be more practical to get something half the price that is more fuel efficient. I never have nice things, that’s the vibe. I want a nice thing lol.

I will talk to my bank to see what kind of financing options they may have for me. Maybe they’ll want the 13k in interest instead of me giving it to someone else. My bank hasn’t been the most generous with me, to be frank. My credit score is immaculate so I have that going for me. I’ll call that Financial Advisor Susanna recommended to me a year ago. Maybe he will have ideas for me. I do have self-directed TFSA and RRSP accounts that I haven’t used to make investments yet. Not that it will magically produce 30k. I have all those side hustles I keep procrastinating on as well. It’s all doable if I could just discipline this brain of mine. The Charger would give me the novelty my ADHD needs to get everything started again. Before my brain runs out of motivation fuel.

It hurts my soul to think about how different my life would be right now if I had been diagnosed with ADHD much earlier in my life. Well, a diagnosis isn’t shit. It’s what I would have done about it that would have made the difference. Lord knows I wouldn’t have accepted any of it. I would have learned to manage it a lot sooner.

By next weekend, I do not want to be empty-handed. There is a time crunch. My supervisor gave me a fair warning that part-timers will be getting fewer hours soon. My paystubs look great for a loan application, temporarily. That status will change for the better if I get a new job. I don’t even know what those hours look like. I’ll talk to Alex about it this evening. If I can balance two jobs for a bit, I will do just that. The classes I want to take do not start until January. I have time for multiple hustles. I’m also considering doing Skip The Dishes casually. My friend works there and deals with the drivers. A lot of whom make thousands a week.

Yesterday, my sister was in town to celebrate her daughter’s first birthday with us. I brought up my test drive with that Charger and her boyfriend went critical-Virgo on me and was like… A Charger? Isn’t that a bit much? He scoffed. I make him insecure sometimes, I suspect. I’m his foil character. He isn’t wrong though. This is extra. He and my sister were both texting with me about it this morning. Everybody just wants me to be aware of how much this will cost me.

Anyway, I still have a lot to do and think about today. I left my keys at my sister’s place where the first b-day party was hosted yesterday. She is way too far so I will have to copy my roommate’s keys when she gets back from her gym. Her boxing coach gave her a come-to-Jesus talk yesterday and guilted her into training again. She enjoyed the break. She was dreading it today. She fractured her wrist months ago. She hasn’t been pushing herself since. She doesn’t want to be worn out the way she was prior to that. Between training, leading classes, and doing the classes she was there all week. I think that is insane. I’m waiting for my groceries to arrive and then I’m going to lay in a field and sunbathe. Then I’m going to go to the gym and hit legs. It’s another scorching day so I might run out of energy real quick. We haven’t used our AC yet this year, we decided to just suffer. I like it until the evening when the sun is facing our side of the building.

We rented The Challengers yesterday. My roommate is a huge Zendeya fan. I didn’t get it. The trailer didn’t give us much. So Zendeya’s character didn’t want to be a homewrecker and ruin a bromance. Then ruined it and then the last scene, it looks like they made up. I dunno.

Oh snap, a third dealership just reached out to me about a Charger lol. Oops.