Out of the Races and on to the Tracks in Current Events

I think I figured out why my mood disorders have not been an issue, not that I want to jinx it. There are a lot of factors but I think it’s mostly the sun. We are solar-powered. It was obvious to me yesterday when I was lying in a field with my book sunbathing. I spent the Sunday before that at the beach. Sun-days, go figure. I’ll keep up with my vitamin D because this is awesome. I should get some D while I’m at it, ba dum tssss. Now, if only I can figure out what my brain needs to fix my ADHD. I’ll get around to that Harvard doctor’s research eventually.

My gut health has not been doing too well since Friday. I discovered that there is corn starch in the microwaveable chickpea curry I have in my locker. My locker has a stash of food. My break in case of emergencies. I gave those away. I just did a coffee enema, that will work wonders here. I’m already feeling so much relief I could cry. I’m developing a low tolerance now for those foods my NP doctor wants me to omit from my diet. The last time this happened was on May 17th, my roommate’s birthday. I had a cheat meal. A plant-based chicken sandwich. Wheat deep-fried in engine lubricant, canola. It was not worth it. It felt exactly how I feel now. Man, I spent years thinking it was bad bloating but it was inflammation. I don’t miss it. On that note, I tried on my favorite pair of shorts this weekend. I had no business fitting into it but I did.

I’m very conscious of the fact that my mind wants something to be wrong, always. An enemy contruct, always. My roommate is an easy target but so is my supervisor. I had to force myself to not vilify her. She gave me a little ultimatum about something that I don’t agree with. I took it in stride. She told me about a full-time position at a different location. I didn’t read into it, she knows I want full-time. Then she warned me that there would be a cut in hours in September. She’s just letting me know the score. I am part-time, so I don’t act shocked about it when I have weeks where my schedule looks like it. She knows I am available to pick up anything and everything.

Karlo, the new hire, shocked me today. On the surface, it looks like he avoids me. We are so much alike, that you would think we would get along more. Not so much. He is very charismatic, and has a big personality and talks to everyone. He never goes out of his way to talk to me. In fact, he goes out of his way to not talk to me or be around me. Today, he didn’t just come talk to me he came and joined me. I know he is into philosophy so I asked him about the books he was reading. The conversation went from there. He is a Scorpio rising, I got to test my working theory that I can get him into the “occult” sciences. The torus field that is hiding at the bottom of the rabbit hole. That came up because he was trying to wrap his head around Nikola Tesla’s research. I explained to him that Nikola based his science on a completely different model of the atom. I’m bringing the Hearthbook to work tomorrow because he wants to see it. This young man, I admire him a bit. He is on the right path. I have a bias, I know. I cannot help but watch him walk. He has the best walk. Every step is a strut. This someone fully sure of himself.

For some reason, I am fixated on getting a Dodge. I found a 2019 Dodge Charger for $20000 that I have my heart set on. It’s a fuckboy mobile, tinted windows included. My mother involved herself in this and found me something she feels is better for me. It’s a 2016 Hyundai Elantra for $15900. It only has 57000 km on it. I’m not into car culture, I am vehicle illiterate. She explained to me that this has less cylinders and will be more cost-effective on gas. The loan payments will be more manageable as well. It will be cheaper on insurance, etc. I was torn between the two and then I discovered that it was sold.

I texted my mother to let her know that it was sold. She called me and made me feel so validated. She had been thinking about my situation and then realized what it is that I am trying to do. She was impressed. You have been making all the right decisions. When I first told her that I am going to get a car, her advice was to save up for it. Now she sees all the opportunities that open up for me. She recommended a few other routes for financing. She even suggested I get a brand-new car. That… Chinada is going through it, man. The cost of cars right now is insane. I’m going to call my bank tomorrow and see what their financing options are. The dealership I applied for financing through called me back but I haven’t returned the call. I think my bank would have a better interest rate. If my car is reliable enough, I will do DoorDash or something. Just casually. Skip The Dishes, my friend works there and tells me that some drivers make $2000 a week.

I am house-sitting for Bev this weekend starting Thursday. I will have her car so I am going to do some car shopping.

I seem to be manifesting again. The cosmos is communicating and I am trying to interpret it correctly. I think it wants me to buy lottery… I’ll drop a little something on that this week. Just scratch cards.

Yesterday, during my morning coffee. I wrote an entry I was somewhat proud of right before this site crashed. It is lost forever. I was salty about it for most of the morning. I’m not over it, lol. Alex and Bruce invited me for their walk. this evening. I think my coffee enema is done now. It’s not over until the fat lady sings. Flatulence, in case you didn’t get my drift. It’s not over until it’s just air that comes out, violently. Very violently. It’s the best part, lol. I said what I said. Sorry for the TMI. I gotta go get ready for that walk. It’s going to be scorching hot all week. Unbearable. I’m finally going to be hot and bothered.