Strategy in Hi

I have a few games I play online. I am not a strategic player, never have been. I don’t think “if this, then that”, and I will have a better outcome.
I play for entertainment and whatever happens, just happens.

Following that thought process, I have lived my life that way too. I didn’t make plans for “what I wanted to be when I grew up.” I got a job, had a great work ethic and things progressed. Several times in my 46 years of working full time, I followed a boss from one job to another. The last 3 jobs I gave notice to, made counter offers for me to stay. Two I didn’t accept, one I did.

When it came to relationships, I never picked someone I wanted as a partner. They picked me. I never ended a relationship of my own accord. Those decisions were made for me.

I have a good life. I do wonder sometimes how it would be different if I had made a plan. If I had been more of a “driver” and less of a “passenger”.

Deep thoughts for a Wednesday night. I had a steroid shot in my hip today. After the injection I started having a cold sweats and felt dizzy. Had to hang out at the doctor’s office for a while before I could drive home. I have felt weepy and melancholy all day. Wonder if that is a side effect of the steroid shot.

Tomorrow is the 4th of July and I am going to ride in a parade. Will be a first for me.

Here is a “ poor pitiful pearl” for you. I had an epiphany today - All the VIP’s in my life, I love them more than they love me. I check on them, I ask questions about what’s going on with their lives, I readily forgive them if they forget important dates. I don’t feel as though they reciprocate. Not a single one of them.

I don’t have a clever ending. Once upon a time, back in the Open Diary days, when I made entries daily I would have.

Goodnight. Sleep tight.