Mundane Monday in Current Events

I forgot about the tension between my supervisor and I. Last week she was on holiday. It was a holiday that turned into a bereavement leave for her, unfortunately.

Without us being micromanaged, we accomplished absolutely everything. One day early we completed our weekly service list. The rest were projects and tasks and online training that we were behind on. Everybody was relaxed. Everybody enjoyed being at work. Nobody was walking on eggshells. Shortly before her holiday, an investigation into her behavior had finished.

The investigation was because of me. I know that she knows it. We can’t talk about it. I will never know what came of it. I was just informed when the investigation was over. She is on her best behavior now. However, she will not say one word more than she needs to when she interacts with me. I don’t even get a hello in the morning. It is what it is. It’s just uncomfortable, the tension. I took one for the team.

I am miserable today because I am in pain. I did legs at the gym yesterday. I used the racks for the first time. Well, maybe second? It was recommended that I only do 8 reps, and 3 sets thus the weights have to be 3 times as heavy. It’s going pretty good. My legs today, the pain just kept getting worse and worse. I cannot bend my legs to save my life. I’m in heat, all I want is a pretty twink to rub my legs for me. Graham, the new rep at work, would probably do that for me if I asked nicely. His legs are yummy. He does marathons. I got William to drive me home after my shift. Tomorrow will be worse. The plan was to go and do chest today. I stayed in and watched the episode I missed from the House of the Dragon. Knowing the source material takes the air out of it. I am also halfway through A Song of Ice and Fire on Spotify.

In my previous entry, I mentioned that I want to be easier on myself. That it is okay to do things in baby steps. Today, I went over my budget. I know where I stand. I printed my budget for my notebook and then spilled my smoothie all over it. On the weekend, I cleaned and polished my desk. I organized it. I sorted my budget book. Of course, spilling my smoothie all over it would happen. I could have cried about it, honestly. I’m not a clumsy person.

I’m not sure where my appetite has been the last several days. I have been force-feeding myself. I don’t know how I am going to gain weight. I got a referral for a dietician. The appointment isn’t until November. That’s soon in Canadian healthcare time. I can’t imagine when and where a human being would have the requisite variety of fruits, vegetables, nuts, grains, etc to sustain a plant-based diet. Meat is dense in nutrition. Something I learned the hard way. It was masking my leaky gut issues but at least I didn’t have all these deficiencies.

Last updated June 24, 2024