sad days ahead in Hi This is Kat!

Last night Jo called me and the homeless Mark got on the phone and told me I needed to come check on Jo. She got VERY angry at him and did NOT want me to come see her like that… :(
I plan on going to check on her today. I try to respect her feelings. I know she is trying to be very protective of me… she knows I will freak out when I see how bad she is. I am trying to balance a fine line here. I am trying to be respectful to Jo on HOW she wants to die… if she wants to refuse treatment because she is tired of the pain should I be respectful of that or should I force her into the hospital knowing she has no insurance and knowing Jo really does not want treatment. Such hard choices I have to make. I love her so much and do not want to see her suffer. Today I plan on going to see her and really hint heavy on going to the ER… at least they can make her more comfortable I know she does not want to prolong the pain she is in. Please God help me deal with this. I do not want to upset my best friend but I do not want to lose her! I know I might be selfish as her quality of life is horrible right now.

I know the homeless guy is worried his meal ticket might be going away. I told him that if Jo was 100% herself she would have a fit on how much money she is spending to keep Randy’s piece of shit rent house ready to live in! the house is worth about 30,000 in a horrible area. They have owned it for 17 years and he has always just let people live there. Personally I think they pay him in drugs or something. sad situation.