I feel like making something your bitch would suit you. Glad to hear the depression nap helped. It's interesting that lists help you with dopamine. That's pretty cool. My therapist uses the window-system for emotional regulation - too stimulated is above the opening and "drop-flop" is below. Anyway, you get it.
Yeah, damn that inner-child really needing to grow up - I'm finding that also. It really is surprising how much of a mind-gut connection there is.