Not all rainbows and sunshine. in Bittersweet

Im ready to cry.
Im pretty sure my kids are going to loose their health insurance. They qualify for the buy in for those over income for medicaid for the state. For kids under 18.
Well they did.
We are less then 2K OVER the yearly max income. And we are PRAYING they take into account that we pay 800 a month to health insurance for T and me. We make 120K a year, the cut off limit is 118.

Its going to be several hundred to add our kids. The thing is. two months ago i got a fucking raise. And thats what killed us. And of course they didnt request the income two months ago. Its now. And I dont know what to do.

Any time we get ahead at all. We get hit with something! I just had to buy new tires and that was 1300!
T says we will amke it work… I just dont know how. Even with the raise I got, it hasnt helped so much. I still have this thing about our cars. Like we pay 1400 for our cars and 2k for our mortgage. Why the hell dont those things count to help! Because its the government right. Fuck these people…

Even if I quit my job to get health insurance back. We cant afford to live.