Action in Still Listening to Spirit

I did exactly what I planned to do after my last entry.

I called John and made an appointment the next day for 2pm. I kept that appointment. First contact usually a general sort of interview, I felt immediately comfortable with him. The part of the new clinic that is mental health has lots of windows, a waiting room, office and therapy room. It is welcoming without being institutional.

John is a calm, quiet bespectacled man likely in his 40’s somewhere. I will have to remind him to speak up as I had to several times during the hour we spent together.

John suggested I see Carol to take a look at my anti-depressant medication. What I am doing is obviously not working and that is the first thing he wanted to get started on.

Isaw Carol the next day. She was pleased with my glucose levels. I am 3 pounds from weighing under 200 pounds–this after weighing 255 for years and years.

Carol added a drug that boosts the antidepressant I am taking–not an expensive one–and cut my regular antidepressant meds in half.

Carol also told me that a lot of my weakness, dizziness and fuzzy thinking is because I am not eating enough food and am dehydrated. I told her that if someone would just give me a clue how many carbs to eat, or some other advice I would certainly feel more confident in fixing food for me.

Carol came back with a booklet that answered questons on portions, half the plate vegetables and fruit, 1/4 of the plate grains for starchy veggies and 1/4 plate protein. There is a long list of food with symbols beside them so you can count much like Weight Watchers. I was so excited when I began reading this.

However, I can’t go into action until I go to the phone company or the News Depot to have these pates enlarged. The print is too small and I am not using small enlarger that is around my neck for reading info on cans, meds and such.

Today I ate 3 times, cheese for breakfast, a bean burrito for lunch and sliced chicken breast for dinner. I needed NO insulin today as my morning reading was 86 and I m not to give myself if my reading is under 200.

I had terrible trouble unloading 50 pounds of frozen meat into the freezer today. We got an order from the meat market in Haines. The first few times I went over to begin, I got soo dizzy I thought I was going to fall down. Not good.

Bending over a large box on the floor wasn’t working so I pushed the footstool over and heaved the box onto it. I did it little by little, resting when I needed to or felt dizzy. That done, I tackled the kitchen which has been used to make sandwiches and such but not cleaned in at least a week.

This too took at least an hour resting as needed. When I was done there and the kitchen was clean, I thought I would vacuum the rug. NOT! I decided not to overdo.

I had a much better day than I have had in several weeks. I know it was just one day and I could have some worse again. But one day, following progress with John and Carol give me hope that I will return to the person I am that I love so well.

Blessed be!