Happenings' in Current Events

Whenever I feel like I am about to spiral I race to play Skyrim. This is the only anesthetic that kills everything I feel inside. I get to leave this world behind. I could have worse vices.

I was running late this morning because I did not prep any meals. I went to bed depressed. I didn’t turn back to grab an umbrella when I stepped out of the building and noticed that it was raining. I started walking and a bus, that was not in service, pulled over and offered me a ride. That lifted my spirits. I almost declined. Apparently, I don’t know what to do with kindness. He must see me every morning like clockwork.

The girls and I are planning two trips this year. One is our annual girl’s trip. The second one is going to be with a bigger group. It’s going to be awesome. The most gorgeous specimen of male goodness works at a restaurant over at that national park we are aiming for and I’m hoping we see him again.

My brother flies in this weekend. He is staying in town for a week. He is going to be couch surfing. I’m not sure where. I hope it isn’t with his friends. They’re trash. I said what I said. I’m looking forward to seeing him. I’m half dreading it. Our personalities clash. We both have a Scorpio Mars. He’s a Sagitarrius but I’m the head of game here. He is going to run his mouth but it’s okay. He’s just blunt. I can tolerate it. I do miss him. He will be respectful in the end. I run my mouth better than anyone. I’m excited for my mother and my grandmother to visit with him.

Also, I don’t talk about my brother much because he is prettier than me. I’m still waiting for an apology. Though, he let himself go…

The store manager wanted to pick my brain concerning the relationship between my team and the store. He trusts my opinion. I like that. There is a position being piloted at a different location which is exactly that. I gave my honest opinion. I lowkey find him dreamy but that’s whatever. We couldn’t talk about the investigation that is underway, thank god. I want to forget about it. In case we don’t know, my supervisor tried me. That was a mistake.

My supervisor was informed about the investigation happening regarding her behavior and how she runs the team. I don’t know if they told her I have a role in it. She would have figured it out and I am sure that she did. She won’t say a word to me unless she has to. It is what it is. At least today she assigned me to do something I never get to do. It basically quarantines me. I’m not even in the building. I get to hide away from everybody and assemble a bunch of shit. I like it. From the line of questioning that I got from my store manager, I think they are starting to understand why there is so much friction between the teams. I suspect they might transfer her to a different store and bring somebody else in. If it is my old boss from my other location… I’m going to die laughing. I wanted to get away from her. I would shoot myself in the foot. I do have a good relationship with my current supervisor but she is toxic to everybody else. I didn’t have to care but… I was having a day. A week. A year? A decade? A lifetime? Multiple lifetimes? [Achievement Unlocked]

I feel dirty at work knowing that I am pursuing a different employment opportunity. The one I mentioned in the previous entry. Youth support at a non-profit. All I can think about is the money which makes me feel some type of way. I want to have my heart in it. Not my hand open. I am making friends at my current job. Well, people are trying to make friends with me. I get invited to play softball and football and train in martial arts. I always decline… I don’t know why. I have a therapist. I’ll bring this up.

The new hire at my work. He’s just a baby. He is only 21. Did I pull up his birth chart? He’s a Libra Sun, Sagittarius Moon, and Scorpio Rising. I told him that I would find Scorpio in his chart. His fair skin is a giveaway. He’s very into philosophy. I was also looking for Taurus because of his wide shoulders and the way he treats his body. He told me that he’s very into doing aesthetic things. I don’t know what that means but Venus is obviously strong in his chart. Taurus is his descendant. It’s like my spidey senses went off when I first saw him. His rising is the opposite of mine. It reminds me of my buddy Mel. We met at work. We have the reverse Sun and Moon signs. We connected immediately. Joined at the hip. Could not stop talking. This new hire, Karlo, is also vegan. His Taurus descendant is strong, I can tell. He works out, he is fit as fuck. He is a major health nut. He so young to be on that journey and I’m excited about it. He rubs me the wrong way though but I don’t need to be getting along with 21-year-olds lol.

Did you know? That it only broke 20 degrees Celsius in my city once this year. It’s still not hot outside and I’m going crazy.

I ran out of my hydrochloric acid pills. I’m taking 5 with every meal, of course, it will run out faster. I didn’t even consider that for a second like an idiot. It won’t be delivered until Saturday. I’m waiting for my naturopath to e-mail me back and approve the one I found at the health foods store near my work. I definitely want it tomorrow because I am going to have my cheat meal. I could cry just thinking about it. I’m so excited. I miss bread. The HCL pills are digestive support. I’m a little bloated from my dinner which wouldn’t be a problem if I had my supplements. The idea is to train my body to produce enough acid. I am to take five with every meal until I start to experience a burning pain in my upper abdomen. Then I reduce it to four. I only experienced it one time. The fact that I can take five without experiencing anything means that my acid levels are dangerously low. This is where my protein deficiency stems from.

There is a thunderstorm happening right now. I like that. I’m only happy when it rains. Kidding. The sound of traffic ruins it.

I don’t feel like I am being very productive right now so I shall log off and do something. Mind you, all I want to do is lay on the couch and listen to the storm.