Just Whining in A transparent lockbox

I have no clue what happens in my brain. It seems to undergo times of relative thoughtlessness and unawareness. I feel like I have been out of consciousness for a solid minute. I’ve had some decent and largely unpleasant moments in the last few weeks. There seems to be a pattern occurring every summer where my OCD/Paranoia increases tenfold. There is disdain within me whenever I hear bodily sounds, like my heartbeat or blood gushing. When I walk my dog there is a specific house that I get intensely anxious when walking by, and for no apparent reason. It has me questioning whether I should add an antipsychotic to my psych cocktail in order to neutralize the grand irrational anxiety that seems to come with the sun. Alongside that, I’ve had the most obnoxious headaches that I assume are correlated. It has been whiplash knowing when I’ll feel good or not. The other night I was in love with the world because of the northern lights, that was beautiful.