Attempt to journal #2 in Attempting to journal

I am determined to write a journal-Like entry come hell or high water. I’m not sure why it’s so hard for me i’ve never struggled with literary stuff. I got high marks in everything language arts related through all my school years without even trying so it must be something mental/emotional. I saw one that was a day by day, kinda matter of fact and that looked do able so im gonna try that, here goes. Lol

This weekend:
Friday- the week ended poorly because J didn’t finish the homeschool work so I have to add it onto our catch up list that she will have to finish before we can quit for the summer. At this rate we won’t get to stop until mid July. I feel like I’m not pushing her enough even though we are both dealing with health and home stuff. I went grocery shopping and stole some quiet moments alone in the car. Stupid Van almost wouldnt start twice. After the second time i pulled over and sent a quick message to a mechanic friend to ask if they will help check it out before i lost my nerve to do it. I then sat and cried for half an hour because i always feel like a huge burden when i have to ask people other than family for help. I came home in time to take J to youth and E and I went to have coffee and play skipbo.

Saturday- Friday night wasn’t a great night for sleep so I didn’t wake until 11 am and kinda lazed around until 3 because I had 0 energy and 7-8 pain. Then I got ready to go watch my Niblings. Stayed there until 9 and headed home.

Sunday- today was a bad morning because it was a horrendous night. Insomnia and pain kept me awake until 6am and I had to be up at 9 for church. Went there, then while J was at campaigners ( like a youth bible study/ life skills thing), E and I again had coffee and played disney pictopia game. Came home and I had planned to do some chores but I’ve been struggling with heart palpitations and feeling wheezy or like I’m breathing through a cloth. I can’t wait for the 48 hr Holter monitor I’m doing in May. I hope it shows what’s going on. Had hamburger helper for dinner so I feel crappy about that ” super healthy” dinner. Now I’m doing this before bed.

If you read this far, thanks for listening to my boring life!

Last updated April 21, 2024