Today in Attempting to journal

I had so much hope to start the first one off strong but I can’t get what I want to write down on paper. Like it’s stuck..so I’m going to do a prompt instead.

1. I feel powerless when....
   All the time. I feel powerless literally all the time in almost every aspect of my life. I feel powerless as a mother, as a woman, as a sister as a daughter. I feel powerless driving, shopping, sleeping. I never feel powerful. What a strange idea that is to me. Are there actually people who truly feel powerful ever? How? When so much is never in our control how can you not feel powerless? I am no more powerful with my daughters or mother or sister or anyone than I would be with the wind! Sure I can control my car but I can’t control others cars so in still powerless in that situation, in any situation it’s the same. Even if I am the control group there are still variables everywhere. I don’t believe I will ever not feel completely and utterly powerless, I k ow too much of how the world works to live in that fantasy.