Work, sleep, brother being needy. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I’m going to start with work as I’m super excited and need to get it out there. Not only am I scheduled for like 32 hours this week but I am scheduled until 11:45 Thursday night which means I’ll be taught how to close as a manager! I won’t be a manager but more of a shift leader, which means a little bit more money and some power! I about shit myself when I got my schedule because I knew right away that being scheduled that late is for manager type people! I do believe the conversation I had with my boss on Saturday probably had some affect because not only was I trying to go down to one day a week but I also let her know how open my school schedule was!

I of course am a tad nervous because I have to learn things like making sure I know what all needs to done, who all needs to do them, counting money, cashing people out and making sure the store looks great. It also means that I will have to be much more assertive because I will be an authority figure so I will have to make sure people are staying focused and doing what they need to do. There’s a couple of people I know I’m going to be a little more rigid with because they are fucking lazy/have bad attitudes. I had to go in last night for like an hour an a half to some bitch confronting me about wearing a plain black shirt because it didn’t have the company logo on it (I didn’t have time to find one) and I seriously got pissed and was like, “don’t worry about it” and she walked off. She’s going to not like me once I’m able to tell her to actually work, I can see it now.

I’m nervous about this change but more excited than anything else. This is something I never thought in a million years would happen and now that it has, it’s a little bit scary but I know I can do it. I’ve been there a year and now it just feels good to know they need me and are finally giving me what I want which is a little bit more money and more responsibility. I will have my own code and a key to the store and that is fucking awesome, it really makes me feel so special and important! She told me the other night that she wanted to train a couple of people just as back up so they picked me and this other guy. I can’t believe it, I’m so excited!

I really should go to the gym but I’m afraid it could be closed today ( I looked online and it says it’s open but it’s a holiday so I’m unsure) and I am just not into it. I haven’t gone since early last week but I’ve just had so much going on. Last night I went to my co-workers house and had a couple of beers which was bad because I’m not supposed to have carbonation due to be taking my energy drink but I don’t think having a drink here and there will make too much of an effect, well I at least hope not. We just sat around bullshitting and just shooting the shit. I hang out with her about once a week and I love having that adult time outside of work. She is a manager and works way more than I do and our schedules kinda overlap and it’s hard to spend time to hang out but we make it work. I can honestly say she makes a helluva lot more effort than most of the people I know and that’s why I will take the time to meet her halfway and come over for a beer. Effort speaks volumes with me.

My brother got pretty fucking annoying this weekend and I’m actually glad I will be working on Sundays from now on because he still thinks that if I’m not at work, I need to just be hanging out with them, regardless if I need to study, catch up on sleep, or just have fucking time for myself!!!! I’m going to have to start getting really ugly about this because again, I don’t have a lot of time to just hang out and do my own thing outside of school and work so I don’t appreciate someone trying to monopolize my time like he does. I see his kid as much as possible but I still have to allow myself time to study and just lay down on the couch and watch tv. I’m just going to start setting serious limits here because when I spend all my days off at his house, I get nothing done over here so my dishes and laundry doesn’t get done and I don’t study as much as I need to so I don’t do as well on tests. I think it’s bullshit how when I wanted to quit school he thought that was stupid but it’s supportive when I need to study! Like, WTF!

I didn’t get the best sleep last night (well I didn’t get home and get to bed until like 2 this morning) because I can’t stop thinking about my job and how getting a little bit of a raise and more responsibility is all I ever wanted and it’s just crazy that it’s finally happening. It’s seriously a dream come true. I know that I wanted to find a new job and I spent so much time thinking about it but really didn’t put in a lot of thought on actually leaving there and starting over somewhere else. I knew even when I was applying for other jobs that I wasn’t ready to leave where I’m at and I’m just glad that what I wanted is finally coming true. I think the reason why it didn’t happen sooner is because they probably thought I went to school full time and I was adamant about getting off early every night. I was just so adamant about it because I like going to bed at a decent hour and because I felt like getting a raise was never going to happen then I didn’t want to stick around anymore.

I just got out of the shower and I have laundry going. I have to leave for work in about an hour an 20 minutes. I have to be there earlier and stay later now which is okay because I need the money. I get paid on Friday and that check will go to rent and then the payday after that I need to pay on my credit cards, car insurance and cell phone bill.

Oh, I went ahead and deleted that one selfie queen. It’s the one that I worked with that came over that one Friday night and said she’d come back and then I never heard from her again. She’s in a really bad, on again off again relationship with some guy and is more focused on that then anything else. With her, it’s always been a one-sided relationship where I was always the one to call/test first, invite to hang out, and spent way too much time listening to her go on and on about her dude. I understand completely about those kind of relationships so I should be more sensitive and what not but every time I talked to her, she had to bring him up and it just got really old and played out. I don’t feel bad for deleting her and if she cares, I’ll hear from her and if not then oh well.

I feel kinda tired. I’m hoping work will go by fast so I can come home and go to bed. I’m not sure why I feel so tired but it’s probably because I didn’t get to bed until 2am and I’m used to being in bed by like 11. I hate when my schedule gets disrupted because it feels like it takes days to make up that sleep, if I make it up at all. I love sleep and feel like I never get enough no matter what. I just love being all comfy in my bed.

Been thinking about my cousin and his wife and it really sucks that we can’t all get along. I really miss their kids and creep on their Facebook pages sometimes just to see pictures. It’s crazy that I remember them as babies and now 2 of them are in high school! It really sucks that there’s just been so many problems with those people and they just keep shit going by telling people we know shit that is untrue and just doing what they can to keep the dust from settling. It’s super frustrating because life is so short and we are all missing out on each other’s lives and the lives of everyone’s kids because they are just those type of people.

Time for work.