The More I Know in Meeting Mr. Jesus Christ

A week ago life seemed to be falling back into place, gaining a certain flow, and I making what seemed potentially rational decisions about my immediate future. Tonight I'm stumbling around with only one thing certain in my head, my relationship with Jesus is my highest priority.

As much as I do understand the rest will fall in place around that fact, I find myself confused and feeling doubtful, my confidence meter to step out and try what I've long been away from is wavering.

I've spoke with a couple friends of the major issues I have floating around in my mind and sought wise counsel from another person who I trust to be completely honest. The first couple friends are good for sugar coating life and so I think my head was a bit in the clouds when I presented my ideas to my spiritually wise friend. He adjusted my ladder for me enough that I could see the ground and realized how far I could fall.

Of course I don't want to admit he's quite likely correct, but considering the cost for not taking a hard look at the choices I make and ensuring they are based in Christ first I'm willing to concede and re-examine.

Tomorrow will be another day full of information gathering, looking at further options and most likely more prayer than there was today, or the day before. The more I know one thing remains the same, whatever choices I make they must always be for the glory of God and not for my own selfish ends. I don't know what this will look like tomorrow night or the next, but I do know that every step of this walk is meaningful to who I am becoming.