Karmic Neutrality in A transparent lockbox

This is practically the antithesis of yesterday’s entry. But today I was online and was recommended the profile of someone who once screwed me over romantically. The profile was nearly blank, with just one picture and no bio, which is extremely out of character. Being who I am, I had to stalk all other profiles on different platforms to see if it was just an anomaly, but all of them have been untouched since November. I know he is alive because I checked obituaries, but something is definitely wrong or something happened. It just got me thinking that I hope he is alright and that nothing too traumatic happened. After my entire spiel yesterday about hoping people get bitten for what they’ve done to me, I can’t help but hope the teeth aren’t too sharp. I feel I have been scorned, but when it comes down to it, I don’t want others to feel how I have before. Maybe I’m weak. I fantasize about revenge, but I don’t really want it when it arrives. Part of me sends wishes that things aren’t too brutal. I don’t think I could ever forgive these people or shed my dislike, but I want at least neutrality for them I think.