Busy bee in Riverdale

So busy day today! Woke up early which sucked at first I am have a sensitive stomach in the morning and threw up. But my air conditioning had to be fixed!

Than I walked to the dr to get pain killers for my teeth. (They are killing me!)

Than picked up the prescription walked home to grab my health insurance card went back and picked up the prescription.

Than I called to make a dentist apt. Which is for Monday.

The dentist office has similar numbers to my exes so when the dentist called me back I for a second thought it was him calling me!!my heart skipped a beat panicky.

I have no idea how I feel about it all. I flipped out and took his sweater and threw it outside of it apt and spit on it after waiting for awhile than calling him up he acts so cold and indifferent towards me. Tries to make me feel like I am nothing to him. Meanwhile when he wants to be with me he calls me a million times and at bad hours. So he can’t fucking talk! More than that he put his hands on me than later on tried to deny it and all this other bullshit

I am mad at him and fed up with him. I still care about him a bit but it’s slowly dying the worse he acts. I deserve better than his bullshit up and down and push and pulls. Especially when I have more on the line now. My therapist said that to me about the crash that comes with us being together than him pushing me away and being all cold.

His silent treatment pins me against my own mind since he is not mature enough to give me any good explanation for ignoring me and being a jerk. It’s hard to know what to think about him and his actions towards me.

All I know is that it pissed me off hurts and confuses me and puts me in my own tailspin. So fuck it.

I’m glad to find a new netflix series to binge on, The Mindy Project it’s pretty funny!

Texted a new friend of mine seeing if maybe she wants to do something this weekend. But we will see no response yet.

Otherwise I am going to see my mom sometime this weekend I guess.

I have a busy week coming up and I am nervous for the dentist so I am going to take it easy. Real easy…