In a really shitty mood. in Since OD is shutting down....

My job is making me so glad I’m looking for something else. I’ve texted the boss again about my paystub situation at 9 this morning and it’s now almost 3pm with no response! I also love how every time the bitch responds, she’s rude as hell and unwilling to help me! Well I’m sorry I’m such an annoyance but as soon as I found out I got hired at the hospital, they won’t have to deal with me anymore! I also question working for a place that won’t even help you with your fucking paystubs! Like what the fuck dude! I find that really shady and them just not giving any kind of a fuck at all about their employees!

I just feel like I’m about to break. I’m just so tired of being a nobody. I’m not important to anyone and it really starts to get to me. I feel really suicidal due to feeling really trapped. I feel trapped. Super trapped. I know I’m nothing but to made to feel like that every single day is just getting to be too much. Tomorrow morning is my interview and I’m very hopeful I’ll get hired and start a new chapter of my life because I can’t keep going on like this. I’ve had enough. I honestly feel like I’m about to break. I’m super frustrated from being sick for several days now, from everyone ignoring me and again, having no support system.

If I knew taking all the muscle relaxers I have would kill me, I’d down them fuckers right now. I’m just so over everything. If I don’t go back to college, I’m stuck paying my loans, I hate my fucking job and pray I find something else soon before I just stop showing up, my family couldn’t give 2 fucks about me unless I’m doing shit for them. I’m just so fucking over everything.