Inching Forward in Current Events

I have been restructuring my priorities this week. I have been letting go of habits that no longer serve. No more porn, no more doom scrolling, no more reporting every thought to Prosebox, etc. Studying seems to be the one thing I am still struggling with, naturally. I had an epiphany about that today. It is hard to motivate myself to exercise at home so I go to the gym. I can’t motivate myself to study so I should go to school or a library. Find somewhere to loiter and hit the books. Colonize a coffee shop. I’m back to drinking regular coffee again anyway.

I want to read instead of doom scrolling but my focus level is not there yet. Instead, I commit to listening to audiobooks. I just finished one this week. Dispelling Wetiko: Breaking The Curse of Evil by Paul Levy.

About Dispelling Wetiko
There is a contagious psychospiritual disease of the soul, a parasite of the mind, that is currently being acted out en masse on the world stage via a collective psychosis of titanic proportions. This mind-virus—which Native Americans have called “wetiko”—covertly operates through the unconscious blind spots in the human psyche, rendering people oblivious to their own madness and compelling them to act against their own best interests.

Drawing on insights from Jungian psychology, shamanism, alchemy, spiritual wisdom traditions, and personal experience, author Paul Levy shows us that hidden within the venom of wetiko is its own antidote, which once recognized can help us wake up and bring sanity back to our society.

Essentially, the blind spot in our consciousness is acting like sightedness. I am really trying to understand why it is that I can’t get people to apply reason. Polarizing with indoctrinated people is like trying to perform an exorcist. They act demonically possessed. For example, I just had a 17-year-old quote Bible verses at me as a death threat, this is not sanity. It’s evil, in layman’s terms. I don’t like to use that term because two-value thinking is part of the problem. The author explained that better than I ever could. Paul Levy modernized the term Wetiko and he calls it malignant egophrenia. This is his second book on Wetiko and basically, the antidote to this mind virus is the virus. The ego is a tool. Most of what we identify with does not exist in reality. This is mental illness. Society is sick and destroying itself. The revolution we need can only be internalized but people self-retract whenever they have an opportunity. They become visceral. Feral, almost. I’m starting his first book on Wetiko tonight.

The part of the book that really stood out was when he described psychologists as performing a self-fulfilling prophecy when they diagnose. I can see that with healthcare altogether.

Denying that we are crazy is just evidence that we are crazy to the mainstreamers. Everybody loves their shackles, this prison that we are spiritualizing. I could go on and on.

It was my birthday weekend. Yesterday I went to a museum with my sister and her kids. Bev came with her kids as well. My mother joined us and her boyfriend Kyle. We watched a show in the planetarium, then we went to the museum and then to the science gallery. I wanted the kids to have a nice time. The sail ship replica had the haul of the ship open for touring. It is only open two weeks a year. I forgot that my mother is a history buff. She didn’t get the opportunity to read everything. I will take her to museums and tours this year, I enjoy those too. We had been to a few but I forgot about them after that transfer of wealth and power started in 2020.

After the museum, I had the girls over. I was dreading the peer pressure to drink but everybody was doing dry January. I think I have a hangover from the THC oil I took, however. We ordered Indian food and watched Barbie. They were blown away by how nice the apartment looked. Not to toot my own horn, but I think it looks nice. I like the aesthetic. It’s boho but dark with an industrial influence. My roommate is coming home from her house-sitting tomorrow. I missed her.

My birthday present to myself was $50 worth of plants. I used my gift cards to buy The Hearthbook which I am stoked about. It’s $80 but the price dropped 13%, what a treat! If we were to remove the allegories from the Bible and just explain the science that it is teaching… we would have the Hearthbook. Julio, the author, includes all the verses along with it too, of course.

Today my mother hosted a lunch for my sister and I. Just pizza. My twin sisters have a birthday 4 days before mine so we usually celebrate all together as a family. Of course, only one of them lives in the city.

I suppose I took this winter break from school as a proper break. I have to work on my crisis list this year for 2024. It’s not so much resolutions, it’s just the year I start trying to get into university. Then start working on my bachelor of science so that I can get into medical school. I need to buy a new car, get a new roommate, find full-time employment that can work with my school schedule, and get funding for school. I don’t have to do everything all at once but it is overwhelming. I don’t have mommy and daddy to help. I never had the opportunity to stay with them so that I could pursue a post-secondary education. I supportive partner would be a miracle that I could use right now. A girl can dream.