Stuck in Journal

Such is the state of my life right now. There’s this huge void,but I’m powerless as to how to remedy the situation…Ok,if I’m totally honest,that’s not entirely true_how do I explain…there is no catchy metaphor,no fiqurative explanation,(without coming off as being a whiny ingrate)…in actuality I know what Should be done,but the possible outcome frightens the hell out of me! I cannot will myself to make a move in either direction so I do nothing. Spiritually,,mentally,emotionally,and physically,I’m just “exsisting”,but outside of myself (if that makes sense) glued to the floor sigh