Facebook. in Since OD is shutting down....

Alright so I’ve been deleted people off Facebook left and right either because I don’t know them very well so we don’t interact, because every status update they make is extremely negative or drama-filled or simply because if people don’t interact with me in person, send a text even once a month or even go out of their way to avoid making eye contact, then why the fuck do we need to be friends on Facebook?!

I just feel like I’ve been through so much shit and now, if people can’t keep it real with me then they don’t need to be a part of my life and that includes being my friend on Facebook. There’s this girl that I work with that I removed as a friend because we’ve made plans several times over the summer to hang out and those plans always fell through but now that she’s single and pregnant, she’s always on Facebook complaining how she doesn’t have any friends and I deleted her because I was about to comment on her bullshit and tell her off! I tried to be her friend, tried to hang out with her but I wasn’t good enough because she had a boyfriend! She ditched everyone because she had a man but now that he cheated and headed out, now she’s upset that no one is trying to hang out with her?! Excuse me but you can’t just assume people are going to start coming around after ditching them out! Fuck that! I also deleted this dude I work with because he stopped talking to me like 2 months ago at work, doesn’t even make eye contact anymore! He has completely gone out of his way to avoid any contact with me so I felt like I did him a favor by deleting him! He made a post the other day that his mom was getting her toes amputated due to diabetes so I commented and said I was sorry and he completely ignored me but commented and said thanks to everyone else that said something! Like, WTF!?

I’ve just spent way too much time trying to be there for people who don’t give any kind of a fuck about me so now, I’ve just had enough. I have deleted a shit ton of people off my Facebook because of numerous different reasons and if any of them confront me, I will straight fucking tell them why! I have become a really blunt bitch and it’s because I’m honestly sick of people’s shit! I have realized that unless you stick up for yourself, people don’t have too much regard for you or your feelings! If you don’t like the way you are treated and you have told people why and they keep ignoring you then they don’t need to be a part of your life! I’m sorry but I’ve spent enough time trying to have friends to go do shit with and I’m also incredibly sick of being ignored so now I’m just done dealing with it!

If anyone gets super pissed about me deleting them, I will let them know that it’s MY facebook page and I will delete people if I want to since it’s my choice! I honestly don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks anymore.

Then this one chick I work with is going to train for a month to become a manager at another store so everyone went out to party with her on Friday night and I’m kinda annoyed since they all ended up at that girls house (the one that is still giving me the silent treatment from like how many months ago) and I feel kinda left out. Granted yes I was invited to go to the bar with them but like, they all went to her house and what if I would have went?! Would I have been welcome to go to her house?! Again I’m really sick of this vendetta with this girl when she was the one who flipped out on me in front of customers and was a complete bitch that wouldn’t stop texting me! I don’t get what the fuck I did wrong but this shit is seriously getting old! I wish this bitch would get over herself and go the fuck away! I am honestly so tired of having to remember to not talk to her when I see her and it’s just getting ridiculous after all these months!

Sometimes I honestly just get so tired of people. I get so tired of feeling like no one really gives a shit about me and I’m just important when they feel like making me important, otherwise I’m just pretty much fucking ignored. This shit is super old. I know that my PMS may be starting and that’s why things are getting to me more than they normally do but damn, I’m so tired of things being the way they are with the people I deal with on the daily. I’m just glad that things really don’t get to me as much anymore and I’ve adjusted to just doing my own thing. I like learning to love myself again and feeling comfortable being alone. I understand when people say you need to be comfortable being alone before you can be comfortable in a relationship. I’m very comfortable with myself. In fact, I know I’m better off being single at this point in my life. I like not having to fight with someone, or check in with someone or having to put up with someone’s shit.

I’m open to the idea of a relationship but even if I find someone, things are going to move very slow and it’s going to have to be the right kinda guy before I even consider opening my heart again. I’ve also decided that I want to know someone for a few months before making the relationship ‘Facebook official’ and even once that happens, I don’t plan to talk about my relationship over social media whether it’s positive stuff or not. Nobody needs to know my business anymore.

I’m feeling pretty tired but I need to run up the Walmart and get a trash can, trash bags, ibuprofen and then come home and do laundry. I still have to study and do some composition homework. I have to write a paragraph from the first person and then one from the third person. I don’t believe I’ve ever done this before so I’m going to go online and see if I can find some examples to give me an idea of what to write and how to word things.

More later.