I Know That Starting Over Is Not What Life's About in Hello

Mk, I had a few questions in my last entry both public and private about my sobriety so I figure I’ll address them.

No, I have no intention of drinking again.
Because I had my stint in rehab I’d be really disappointed in myself if I decided to pick up the bottle again. Not just letting myself down but my family and the counselors Bene and CBC for pushing to get me into the program to begin with.

How have I been feeling?
Absolutely amazing!
Seriously!

My mental clarity has been wonderful and who knew thinking clearly would be fun lol
Physically I’m not sick all the time with diarrhea, burning up with no sweat and constant need for water. Okay, scratch that last part. Due to my meds I always have cottonmouth so I do drink a lot of water still.

And the biggest bright side is I was able to walk into the courthouse yesterday for a drug test and not worry if I’ll test positive. I’m 100% clean! I am a bit nervous and excited to see what the judge’s reaction will be tomorrow.

I plan to continue to see a therapist for now and stick with my New Horizons meetings. I feel like a new day has dawned on me and this was my rebirth.

Update: 48 days sober.

Last updated December 14, 2023