Good News Comes In Bundles in My New Life

I have been working on my positive thinking. It has become difficult at times when dealing with co-workers. It has been a leitmotif for me in my work-life. I work to live, so when I clock out, I am living my life to its fullest. I’ve practiced Yoga for 14 years, I am always starting new hobbies, or new projects I find fun, and rewarding. Sometimes it’s painting, or drawing, or playing piano, or guitar. Sometimes, it’s building things. I cannot wait to get a garage or workshop, because there are woodworking projects I’ve been dying to try out, namely Japanese Joinery. I’ve done construction work on the side multiple times, welding, and electric work. I actually, truly enjoy construction and woodworking. I did it for a living for Interior Designers making design lamps from “recycled relics” as they put it. It could have been a piece of antique carved wood, or ballasts and corbels from old French buildings that have been torn down in New Orleans. No two sets were ever the same. It was a difficult job that included painting, antiquing, welding, wiring, woodwork and an artistic eye.

And that’s not to mention my partial English education. I have probably read over 500 novels, and I don’t mean truck-stop paperback novels either. Usually college literature, poetry, Modernists, or basically the section in the bookstore that says “Literature” over it, but a little of everything else too.

The problem I run into more often than not, in the workforce, is a matter of pecking-order. I come into work happy, motivated, and content with where I am in life. Oftentimes, my superiors, or those with seniority feel as though they need to knock me down a peg. They can’t figure out why my status seems greater than theirs when they have rank over me at work. They may make more money than I do, but if you take in consideration that I can remodel my home myself for 3 times cheaper than they can have it done, plus, my workmanship is designer level, and you will always take better care of your own belongings than you can have it paid to be done. So, if you add my potential to my paycheck, then I make a pretty penny more than the same dollar amount to unskilled hands. Plus, any food I cook at home is literally better than anywhere you can pay to have it made around town. And, projects are literally what I do for fun. I quit watching TV when I was 13. So, I’m fucking rich making less money than my immediate superiors, and co-workers, and I ride a bike to work.

So, in adjusting to life without a car this semester I made less than perfect on my first exams. My teacher does not teach from a book, and his power points are slightly anemic. Almost all of the exams are taken from what he produces in class orally. You really don’t even have much on his power points to go on without having taken notes in lecture. I’m a reader, and I study from books for my tests. That’s my strength. Actually auditory learning is slightly a weakness for me, since I do have hearing trouble, and I’m just more kinesthetic, and visual when it comes to learning. I had sort of pegged my teacher as one of those easy college courses that really don’t take much effort to pass by the way he sort of brushed through the information non- chalantly. I rode the bus for tutoring just to make sure the day before my first exam, but I had the bus schedule mixed up, and I missed the last ride back into town, so I had to walk 6-9 miles back home to my apartment that night which really cut into my study time I had budgeted out.

My grade seemed as though it was suffering, so I bit down hard for my last two exams. It was looking like I was going to get a C, or a low B if I tried really hard. I felt a bit defeated, because I truly am taking my studies very seriously. But, in our last class he broke down the grades we have recorded online, and gave us the equation to factor out what our grades are at that current moment. I had been looking at my score all wrong, and I have a high B with the greatest potential to get an A on my final exam. I finally felt some reward I had been missing the last month or so. I think my work environment is sort of overpowering my successes in life, and class. My co-workers are struggling in life, and I am climbing my mountain as I’ve been climbing for years. So, it’s sort of anti-climactic to celebrate when they are simply treading water in the best case scenario, and actually digressing more often than not.

Last updated December 02, 2023