Ya. in Since OD is shutting down....

So, this is my first weekend having 3 days off and it’s going great. Last night I went to my parents house for my Dad’s birthday. We had a BBQ with beer, a bottle of tequila rose since I wanted us all to take a birthday shot and cupcakes. It was a great time. My brother wanted me to be his DD and then said we would have to leave by 9 so his kid could get home and go to bed so I went out there without them and then they came awhile later. I’m not sure why my brother thinks I should just always be responsible for him but it’s old and I just don’t deal with it anymore. His girlfriend kept glaring at him when it started to be close to 10 pm so they had to leave cuz she’s the boss which is whatever but I stayed until about 12:30am.

My parents have this friend that they’ve known for like 30+ years that has came back into town and is actually staying at the homeless shelter. I’m not gonna go into full detail of this person or his past but he doesn’t have a car, a cell phone, a job and really doesn’t have a lot of ambition to try and get things figured out. He spent the night with my parents last night but I just don’t want my parents to put too much energy or money into trying to help him especially when he’s not doing much to help himself. I’ll talk more about him later.

Anyways, school is going along fine. I’m still feeling kinda shy and hate when the instructor forces us to get into groups and discuss things. I hate being pushed into being social. Sometimes it’s because I just am not in the mood and sometimes it’s because I’m shy. I also had a test on Friday morning and I’m really hoping I did okay. It was hard to concentrate because people were getting done before me and were making a lot of fucking noise as they were exiting the classroom! Like coughing, stomping, and zipping up their fucking backpacks! It was really distracting and I honestly wanted to start yelling at people! I’m sure I did ok on the test but felt like if people would have been quieter, I would have done better! I got to the point where because I couldn’t concentrate, I just wanted to get through it as fast I can so I could leave and not flip out on anyone! Ugh! So fucking annoyed with people! It’s just crazy how fucking rude and inconsiderate people can be!

Work has been going pretty good considering I’ve been getting off pretty close to the time I’m scheduled to be off and I’m not having to work on Friday, Saturday or Sunday. We also don’t have school on Monday so I’m free until Monday at 4pm when I have to be at work. It’s just soooooooo nice to not be super tired and sleep deprived! I don’t know it’s like I just put so much pressure on myself to work alot because I needed the money and because I didn’t have much of a life outside of work but now I realize that sleep is just as important as money and I also like having more time to relax, watch tv, and just sit down.

I didn’t do much today. I talked on the phone with my Mom quite a few times, texted a girl that I used to work with, studied, took a short nap and watched Grace Under fire on Huluplus. It’s been a fantastic day off. My brother said last night that we were gonna go to the lake today when I got up and called him but that didn’t happen. I guess they decided to go at like 4 and asked if I wanted to go but didn’t bother to give me any kind of a warning so I said no. I’m sorry but I’m not going to just rush to get dressed and ready to go on no fucking notice! That’s so fucking rude and it seriously pissed me off! I just don’t get why he thinks that’s acceptable and if I would have went, I would have been stuck keeping my niece busy while they went swimming and what not, no thanks!

Anyways, I’m gonna go to bed now but I’ll write again tomorrow.