Three Fucking Hours in Me Being Me

it took for the dryer to dry my clothes. And there was steam comming out for like 2 hours so there is a definate issue that needs to be fixed but I am afraid the slumlord will tell me to use the air cycle on the dryer. That is how cheap she is because to spend money on something that will work and be under warrenty and not take all day to dry a load of laundry. This dryer had a temapture issue five or 6 years ago and all she said was use the permemnt press cycle and I did and now it has the same tempature issue and the prement press cycle has a timing issue and a tempature issue and the regular cycle has a tempature issue. So I am not sure if I should continue using the dryer till it explodes or catch on fire or if I should just not use it till she tells me she isn’t going to replace it or fix it then I will have to go to the laundramat. And there is also nohter leak in the laundryroom where the same leak was but it’s just iin a different area on the wall. And I can see the black that was bleached and cleaned with pinesol is getting blacker. So what will happen is she will come and have a look and then tell me the next time it rainbs she will have a look and then maybe fix it if she has enough money. So that means I will have to look and smell that wall for something like till next Spring when there isn’t so much rain. Well good thing I have a door becasue that will be opened all day everyday just so I smell the fresh air instead of the mold and must.
When hubby came home from work yesterday I told him it took three hours for the dryer and steam was comming out for two hours and he said this weekend he will tell the slumlord and he will also tell her about the leak in the wall and hopefully I will get these things fixed. But I am not going to hold my breath because I am sure I will turn blue or green or both. I would tell her but then I would start swearing and yelling at her and then she will just leave and not do anything so I have to wait till hubby is here so he can make sure I don’t kill her or thow sharp objects at her head. So I am thinkoing he will talk to her on Saturday or Monday because on sunday I am going to go get some new clothes that fit and I can then go to hubby’s work Christmas party and I will also have something to wear when I see my parents.
I talked to my mom yesterday and told her I need to borrow her car to run down the slumlord and she told me no then I asked her if I should throw wet noodles at her window and she said no to that also. But I did tell her how it took three hours to dry a load of clothes that is alkways the same size and how it should be dry in at least 45 minutes, And then she asked me why isn’t it fixed and I said it has been like this for like 8 years and she knows but just tells me to use another cycle and I did and now there is even a bigger issue. She didn’t know what to say and I knew that but she undertsands housturanit g tiis to have things not working and not being fixed or replaced. And that was the end of that part of the conversation.

Onto something else…

Dinner tonight will maybe be porkchops if I can find them in one of the freezers and rice and a frozen vegetable. And I will also be doing my regualr domestic work and then not much else.
I just wish I had more energy to actually get this place like I use to have it where I could eat off of the floor and all I smelled was cleaning products. I miss those days but I am slowly comming back to that. I just look around and ask myself why should I when I don’t really live here and I don’t pay rent or I am not a tenent? And I am always being told that this is not mys apce and I have no rights and what she says goes. So I have decided that why should I do anything for her if I am not even living here or can call this “home”?
I just want everyone to get along and for me not to be so angry and hateful and live in what I call a home where I am actually happy to wake up and be proud of where I am living. Is there such a thing as a perfect home?

Anyways..I need to stop here…
Do have a great day.
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe, and Behave.

Last updated November 15, 2023