roller coaster life in Torridaussity Two

The past few weeks have been insane. First off my grandfather was in the hospital because he was bleeding from his colon and they couldn’t find the source and they still don’t know what caused it, but he returned home Monday and as he returned home my mother was hospitalized. She will be having her back surgery on Tuesday as long as everything checks out tomorrow. She was hospitalized to help manage the pain as it is debilitating. I was with her last night and she just cried in agony which ripped my heart apart. My health is also a little crazy. Good news I have lost 11 pounds and all my levels aside from my A1C for my blood sugar are good. My blood sugar is still not where it should be, but I am getting there. My blisters are coming back more and more so I am going to have to call the doctor soon, I keep living in denial can’t for much longer, stupid auto immune disorder not only does life throw me curve balls so does my body.
In other news I had been falling and hard for ARJ which I had written an entry about him, I felt we were super close and just getting closer and then two weeks ago he basically showed me the light that it was all one sided and I knew it was he warned me up front, but I had hope maybe he changed his mind. With my eyes open that yet again I picked the wrong guy, I responded to an email on my dating profile and we were supposed to have a date Sunday night, but I figured out all he wanted was sex and saw me as a challenge because he knows I don’t give it up. He was super nice and sweet and romantic, but would throw in a sexual comment here and there testing the waters and when I told him no I wouldn’t sleep with him after a few dates he changed and blew me off. So another frog checked off the list and I didn’t even have to kiss him lol. Today I had to do the als ice bucket challenge and brrrrr it was cold. I think that’s enough just keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers we could use them. <3