Just another day. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I’m up waiting to go to my first class of the day while the maintenance man fixes my shower. I haven’t gotten to shower in over a week and I’ve now realized how gross it really is to have to take baths all the time. My body feels so fucking nasty that I can’t stand myself. I’m hoping he gets done so I can shower before my first class but if he doesn’t, I’m going to get my shower in before my next class. They say you don’t know how much you appreciate something until you go without it for awhile and for me, being able to shower is something that means a lot to me. I guess he’s telling me I’m going to have to wait a day for the caulk to set up before I can shower but I can still take a bath in the mean time which I probably won’t because it’s not making me smell any cleaner or feel any cleaner at this point so I’m just going to wait until tomorrow and get to take a shower, so excited!!!

So, that girl I worked for last year that had the daycare…she had a really rocky on again off again relationship with her boyfriend, the one she had a kid with. Well, I see on Facebook that they got married yesterday. I just don’t get it because the last time they broke up like a month or so ago, he put dry cement in her gas tank and ruined her car. Even when I worked for her, I saw the knife marks in all of her furniture from him, had stolen her cell phone, broke into her house multiple times to destroy or steal things and now they got married?! I don’t know why she would do that to herself! Now when they break up, it’s not going to be just a break up. It’s going to be an expensive, lengthy process!!!! I don’t know if they thought they’ll get along now that they’re married but a marriage is just a piece of paper, it takes a lot of WORK to make a relationship work regardless if you have the same last name or not! Since people were so shocked and not to happy to hear they got married, she made a status update about ‘haters’ but it’s like ok you are the one that always posts how he won’t leave you alone and keeps destroying your personal property so it’s your own bad that people aren’t supportive of you marrying him! If you can’t get along while you are just dating or living together, being married isn’t going to make a fucking difference!

I now have about 30 minutes before my first class. I’m so glad I decided to take only 3 classes again this semester because 4 would have been way too overwhelming. I already feel a tad overwhelmed but then remember I cut down to 4 days a week at my job and should be okay and if anything, they offer free tutors at my school. I’m now kinda realizing how much easier my classes were last semester. I’m also gonna see if my financial aid is there today so I can buy my books. I have enough in my account to get them but I also need some other stuff so I’m hoping it’s there today.

Getting up this morning wasn’t as bad as I anticipated considering I didn’t get to sleep until around midnight. I slept a lot yesterday so I know that is what made it harder to go to sleep too. I also want to start getting up around the same time everyday so that I can try and get used to it. I’ve never been a morning person and I know that’s probably never going to change but now that I have a class either at 9am or 10am everyday, I have to start getting up at a decent time which also means I need to get to bed at a decent time which isn’t always the easiest thing because of my job. I did manage to get out of there by 10 last night which was nice but was still there later then what I like but being off Friday, Saturday and Sunday is going to be a big help. I think working 4 days a week will be enough, I’ve just always worked a lot because of my car payments but I’m not going to deal with everything taking a back seat to my job anymore either. I may not have a lot of extra money from here on out but I’ll be alright.

I also need to figure out what to do about my diet and losing weight. Even last night I was at work and at some pizza and had a milkshake. I knew it was wrong but it’s like, by the end of the night I’m hungry, hot and tired and just want something tasty but that’s what’s keeping me fat. Nothing stopped me before when it came to losing weight and I need to get back in that mindset. I am so tired of being a fat pig and not feeling good about myself and need to change that.

Anyways, time for me to get out the door. More later.