2:00 AM in Hello

Passed the 24 hour mark around 10 PM.
Wide awake…

I’m under my blanket but too hot, feel slightly moiste. Very tempted to make myself a some highly caffeinated cup(s) of coffee and just stay up. I’m craving a cigarette anyway and a good cup of Joe always goes great with a smoke.

I was super tired around 7 but I had to get up and cook dinner. Grilled brats with an onion skewer, oven roasted asparagus and boiled corn. The food definitely woke me up some. Then mom and I both got cabin fever and went for a long drive after the 10 o’clock news. I read some more Arthur C. Clarke stories when we got home.

Don’t get me wrong, I am really burned out and tired but my brain just won’t shut off! Usually reading will knock me right out when tired. Nope, read four short stories. Even did some TMI to myself to a tastefully done art movie. 🤣 Nothing!

😵🔫

Fuck it, Marlboro menthol black and iced coffee here I come.

5:34 AM

Finished the book and just at a bratwurst for breakfast. I’m going to shower later, do group and go see the other counselor. At some point today I’ll sleep. Maybe....

As it stands now I’ve been awake since Monday night. Hello Wednesday morning.

Last updated October 04, 2023