Suicidal burned out looking for Adventure in Just Life

I think after work I am getting out of town for a bit. I missed some of my doses of Zoloft. I have been having suicidal idealizations. I have not acted in these idealizations because I know it’s a side effect to my accidently weaning myself off the medication cold turkey when I lost the medication. I am now using my medication again trying to go back to normal.

I am really burned out at work and life. Every morning I have been debating on just vanishing. Create a new life elsewhere. Sadly I can’t someone got to care for my schizophrenic mother. Nobody will deal with her but me.

I think after I take a short nap I just getting out of town a bit. My husband will either come with me or I will go on my adventure by myself either way I am searching for dopamine to cheer myself back up!