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It is a Day.

This week I've had two excellent interviews. The first snagged me a spot with a staffing company for major defense contractors around here. Not my dream method, but the rent is due in two weeks and I can barely feed myself. The second was arranged by aforementioned staffing company. It's a 2-3 month temp role, replacing the current woman who's about to have a baby any day now. They pay $15/hour. (!) It went really well.

The interview was downtown, so I go to navigate down there for the first time and find a parking garage, then wind my way back. The entrance to the third-floor suite was tucked in an alley-turned-arboretum. Very pretty. The lobby for the suite, just the lobby, had leather-backed chairs and a standalone glass bowl sink, and was roughly the point that I was stupidly grateful to be in full formal interview attire (I looked awesome). I was shown the way to the restroom, where I corrected my shirt and hair and took deep breaths and reminded myself that they pee just like anyone else.

I met with three engineers. I was on my game, most Deferentially Charming, with firm handshakes and rising to greet and eye contact. I made them laugh a bit and was honest and emphasized why I'm their best hope. The interview lasted 45 minutes and ended with one asking me about my football loyalties, and a tour of the office space.

Afterward, after I had gotten back downstairs and out of the building without doing anything stupid, I enjoyed the cooler breeze of downtown (waterfront) and walking along looking like a professional. I paid my $3 for parking and got turned around, since the garage exited on a different street, but then navigated my way home and even took a different route in search of lunch. Since I was out of bread, waffles, pancake mix, and pretty much anything but unprepared chicken, condiments, and four eggs. My car didn't even stall. It was a good day, even with the road work delay.

I took a nap afterward. It was hot, I was kind of tired after rising at 8am to do my hair, and I had nothing else to do. I had two dreams about getting a nice job and then being physically attacked by coworkers/employers. In the second dream, I even had Sheppy with me. Didn't help.

Aaron came over around 8. We went to Publix and I bought him a steak dinner, my thanks for helping me move and taking care of me immediately after. I then dressed up (as visual thanks) to make my part of it and he made a lot of slightly uncontrolled holy shit faces, which was awesome and validating. His eyes nearly crossed when I offered to bring him a beer.

The rest of the night was spent with the Simpsons marathon and him working on game stuff. I helped. It went on about an hour longer than I wanted to, so I was flagging noticeably and only with it by virtue of the live tiger cub cam. He got up early and then left not long after to go use the game stuff he/we had spent all night on.

It is now 1:30 in the afternoon. After three consecutive nightmares (?) I am already emotionally done with today. One was my college marching band slowly and miserably disbanding. (I have band dreams instead of the usual stress-induced exam or naked dreams.) One was Aaron losing all interest in me and fading away. The last was getting blamed for some guy's death and the angry gang closing in around me to kill me by mob rule in a hardware store. One guy was really intent on killing me with a spoon.

I am drained, I am tired. It is miserably hot for the third, fourth day in a row and no one is outside. My MP3 player only has one bar left so I can't force myself to run. I'm slightly stiff from sleep for whatever reason. I need to go at least buy bread and pancake mix and butter but I just don't care. I probably won't see Aaron until close to midnight, so I don't even have to pretend to care. It's the last Saturday before football starts (oh thank God). I'd like to go spend the day at the beach or downtown, but see above re: recordbreaking heat. So I think darkening my apartment as much as possible, lots of fluids, a book, and a tank top is today's ambition. Time to go spend some time in someone else's world.

Last updated August 23, 2014