Hinging on in Journal

my earlier entry about what is difficult to accomplish is admirable, although not necessarily required for virtue,
One of the things I noticed in church going women; they’re so far without exception unattractive. I don’t mean just their face, although that is a factor it isn’t something under direct control. I mean they’re fat. Unfit.
Maybe without exception is too far to go. I have noticed 2 fit older women. By older I mean older than my parents. Part of me wonders if they’re divorcees or widows. The cynical part, lol.
It’s without argument one of the most selfish, destructive and harmful things a woman can do to her marriage; get fat. When I see a fat woman, I see a big nasty, angry FUCK YOU to her husband. Not only a fuck you, but I don’t care who knows that I’m slinging our marriage into the ditch. In fact, I prefer everyone be aware of this humility.
There are a couple women who aren’t fat in church. One works and sends her kids to public school. So, another fuck you, but infinitely more immoral. She’s also fit, so I can imagine vanity drives her into the workplace and to abandon her children to sadistic indoctrination.
The other woman I feel quite a lot of friendship opportunity with. She’s heavily pregnant, due any day.
But, yeah. I see people who don’t seem particularly interested in doing difficult things. I see people who I cannot trust to do what is necessary. Not even that, people who I can’trelate to.
I don’t know when exceptionalism became trendy to buck out of the christian church or homeschool environment. But even the teenage boys are competition averse. It’s… Almost disgusting.
Yes, I want to be the best, and I want my kids to be the best. Please, please, please, offer up some kind of decent competition! It’s not a dirty word. Competitionis cooperation. We all help each other to be better. It just doesn’t work if everyone agrees they’re good enough being mediocre, fat, and vain.