Done. in Friends With the Benedicts

I'm all done with the Colposcopy part of this thing. Next is to find out the results of the biopsy and then schedule whatever treatment they think is best. I did mention hysterectomy to the doc when she was talking to me before the procedure but she said that I will be hard pressed to find one who will wanna do it. She said she knows I have my reasons but there is not enough of a medical reason yet to support it. Of course I don't agree with her, and she doesn't have all the facts. That's OK tho, she isn't a shot-caller. I dunno... I mean, I certainly won't go against the doctor if they say it is not in my best interest, but I don't want them to base this solely on my age and child status. For one, my age is not applicable, because of the MS. And I am already up there in terms of birthing age. I mean, I know 32 (33 next month!) isn't that old, but when the age of 35 is when you start kinda getting into troublesome waters, it's close enough. A second, I don't want children anymore! Send me to a psychiatrist if you must, but please do not call my character into question. Anyway....

So the actual procedure went OK. I completely forgot, or rather wasn't rold, that you must give a pee pee sample pretty much every time you come in. So I had just gone to the bathroom, was actually still in there, when I hear them call my name. I come out and she hands me a cup. I was like, "Seriously?!" lol. She said they only needed a couple drops and for me to drink some water and then try again. So I did, and finally I was able to. I filled it up actually more than I thought I would, and ended up giving them probably an inch and a half, maybe more in the cup. So they take me back, and the nurse says to sit down while she is checking my pee. After a few minutes she asks, "Are you diabetic?" I was like, "Well, I have been told I am 'borderline'. Why?" She says something pertaining to my pee and now I seem to have developed a small case of amnesia. lol. Anyway, so she says she is gonna check my blood sugar when we get in a room. So she does, and it is a whopping 295!! I tell her that I have never been officially diagnosed one way or the other and she just looked at me and said, "Well I think it's safe to say you have been now." Grr! I am losing weight, what more does my body want from me?! Jeez!

So the procedure. The doc asked me if I wanted to watch and see what they see on the monitor and of course I said yes, because I have researched this and kinda know what to be on the lookout for. I know that the more white there is on my cervix, the worse it is. So they get all the stuff set up and they are inside me, which hurt like a bitch! And then they put the vinegar on my cervix to turn the abnormal areas white, which burned so bad! So they light up like a xmas tree. It's a pretty big area that turned white. She says could you please switch to the green filter? And omg the white just lit up even more! I was quite disappointed. She pointed out the areas that were really bad, while telling them where to biopsy. They were gonna take only 3 but she messed one up so she had to redo it. So I got 4 areas cut off with a very noisy thing that sounded like a large animal trap snapping closed every time they would cut a piece. The first one I nearly came up off the table! omg ir hurt sooooo bad. I was in even more pain today, one day after. I am not leaking the nasty coffee ground stuff that I have heard about and they confirmed pretty much at all. I took the pad off that I was wearing today because it almost had nothing on it. Hopefully I won't regret doing that, lol. I have an appointment to go back for the results in two weeks. It is actually on the day we get paid, the 3rd, so I shouldn't have any problems remembering that one. ;) They cannot give the results over the phone or anything, that has to be done in person for this test. I was actually able to call and get the results of my pap over the phone. I guess cuz there is the slight chance that it could come back and say I have cancer, and nobody wants to hear that over the phone. Yup.

Well, I guess I'm gonna go. Can't think odf much of anything else to report. :) OK I hope all of yall are doin good! Bye!

Steph