Suicidal almost hit by car in Just Life

I was walking across the parking lot with water for moms dogs in a buggy. A woman was socializing with someone didn’t look behind her and just floored it. She missed me within a matter of inches. Considering I been thinking of suicide for the past week I felt let down she didn’t put me out of my misery. I stepped out of the woman’s way. I lied thanking her for not hitting me with her car. I told her have a nice day smiled at her and walked to my car. I sat with tears in my eyes and thought for a moment there I thought I was free.. I went to my mom’s and started cleaning up the house she trashed and abandoned.. I looked around and said Dad I miss you. I almost got to see you again. RIP Dad.