Broken Brain in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown

Took mom to her optometrist appointment and while I was looking at the video game section in Wal-Mart I noticed I had the shakes. Was I hungry? Was I still detoxing? Was I craving? Craving…a bit. A few drinks or get high. It’s been too long to still detox…right? Hungry…no, I ate a sandwich before we left the house.

We left to head to Publix (seriously, Walmart is expensive now) and I noticed a familiar feeling setting in. Annoyance. Irritation. Little things will bother me. I took mom’s whimsy with a grain of salt but I felt like picking a fight. Cussing. Yelling. Purchased few chicken tenders at the deli and an Icee at Circle K. Food is gone, shakes are gone but I feel a headache coming on. I still feel irritated with the world. Just everything. Normally I’d drink this feeling away (thus amplifying it tenfold making me angrier by the drink) but I know that it will cost me dearly.

I’m sure Judge Cleveland would love me to stumble into her courtroom tomorrow, hungover and with enough toxins in my system to light up the analyzing machine to be seen from space.

It’s hot outside.
The sun is out.
I’m going to punish my body by taking a long walk till my calves are screaming at me.

✌️ y’all.

Last updated August 11, 2023