State of sadness in I don't know....

A friend of mine went Home yesterday. She was 46. She had a blood clot she didn't know she had and it traveled from her lungs, to her heart, and finally into her brain causing 'global' damage that was unrecoverable. They did CPR on her numerous times, tried to dissolve the clot, etc. Yesterday afternoon, her kids told her goodbye and within an hour she was gone.

My friend is gone. My chest hurts some today. I cried a lot yesterday. I know life moves on, but my heart hurts. She was not my best friend, but she and I spent time chatting about marriage and such in FB messages. We shared a common love of cooking and homeschooling kiddos. Now, she is gone.

I don't have the heart to unfollow or unfriend her right now. I can't delete her blog either. I see it sitting there with the title "Cookies and Life". I can't.

My friend is gone. I know where she is. I know she is in Heaven. She had strong faith. Even though her husband was horrible to her and had horrible issues with pornography and cheated on her, she persevered for the sake of her kids until last year when she had enough. It was too much. She deserved better and the short time she has been without him she seemed happier and more content.

My friend is gone. I'm so sad. I wish I could shake it off today, but I read a message her daughter (a senior in college this year) posted. She told everyone to come over. They didn't want to be alone. They needed smiles and hugs and memories. Bless their hearts. I wish I could wrap them up and bring them to the log house. I would.

My friend is gone. I will see her again. I know it, but for now the void seems long and wide. I will see her again and the length and depth and width will shorten as time moves on.