I keep hearing people say that I'm so go-with-the-flow...
In my opinion, that's far from true. I dislike the unknown. I hate surprises. I like to know the ending first. If someone won't tell me how a movie ends, I look it up... Before it's over. I used to read R.L. Stine fearstreet books, and I would read the last chapter... Always! I'd try hard to hold off, but I never could.
Point is, I don't feel that's who I am. I need control. I'm a control freak.
I'm not a doctor or anything, but I think I know me pretty well. I think a contributing factor of my failing marriage was my need to control. When I couldn't have that, I have completely up. I'm not grown up enough for this shit.
Not being able to figure everything out all at once pisses me off, too. I'm trying so hard to be the Sarah that everyone accuses me of being. I'm trying to just focus on one thing at a time... My certification test is scheduled for Thursday. Hopefully I can pass. As soon as I do that, getting new job! Save for car, then save for apartment.
I'm still pretty convinced I am going to rock this single mom thing. Steve and I are going to put our differences aside, when kids are concerned. I see him being helpful, too. He said I can have all the stuff from the house (in storage right now).. So that is good.
One. Thing. At. A. Time.
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