Lethargy in Current Events

I reached out to my uncle about collecting the reparations from that residential school on my fathers behalf. He told me which level to apply for because my father was abused. That information made my heart drop when he said it even though it is something that I always assumed. Something about hearing it from his brother who shared the experience made it sink in. He also offered to help me with a writing my letter. The problem is that my father passed away before 2005 so they will not allow me to collect on his behalf. My uncle has a lawyer available should they decline my application. This is going to be my project tomorrow. I have absolutely no energy for it today.

I was pulled into the office to participate in an investigation regarding favouritism. I got to tell the store manager what transpired between my supervisor and I a month ago regarding something else which is of the same nature. I’ll write him an email when I’m in next to ensure that it is documented.

I already said it but I have absolutely no energy today. It feels like I am wearing lead armour again. I have plans this evening to find a patio to dine out in with my friends. It’s supposed to rain. Leanne has an old friend in town and wants us to meet her. I think I’ll go for a run or something to wake myself up. I think it’s a carb overdose. I ate a lot of homemade pizza between yesterday and today.

Last night while I was dreaming I became aware that I was dreaming and then I tried to fly. I levitated a bit. I haven’t had a dream about flying in a long ass time. The dream took place in the playground of my elementary school. I was a child in this dream.

Tomorrow will be one week since I interviewed for that aboriginal centre. They said it would be two weeks before I hear back from them. I am expecting to be disappointed and let down as per usual. Nothing is allowed to go right. Witchy stuff keeps coming up on my socials. How to repel negative energies, attract better ones and how to work with them.

Speaking of socials, I wrote down a list of things that I intend to stop going back to. Habits and things of that nature. A little New Years Resolutions moment. I keep falling back into old habits that do not serve me. Phone addiction is one. Porn addiction is another. Mind you, I feel like I am in heat. It’s annoying.

Anyway, I’ll go try and get energized for the evening.